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the missing, tarnished little ring.
8 years ago
some say I am crazy, and I'd say that they're at least half right.
though actually, it isn't missing, it's gone, sold, I remember the exact time and the feel of the day that I sold it, as it was still of enough value to be sold, not thrown away. like you'd done with me.
And then you'd had the gall to think that when I'd shown back up, that it was to be put back on so easily as the costume jewelry that some people trade on and off as easily as other's switch out their underwear or their lovers! and you honestly claim to have known me at all?
if you'd honestly think that I'd come back for you after that, then you'd not known me at all!
though there are many things that you'd not truly known.
even though I had admitted that I needed, yes needed, a man too. I did love you. I did want you to always to have been in my life. always my wife! and I; always your friend. your caretaker. your mental equal. one of the parts that helped you feel whole!
though you now claim, that I never loved you. never cared for you. never wanted you. only wanted our kids from you.
they'll always be our kids! and I'll want them to always be our kids! even when they are grown!
I only want the care of our kids now, so that they can grow! they can know! know; what care is! what safe is! what clean is! how did we get this far off course? how did we forget this much? how can we hate each other this much?
could I bare another ring someday, with someone else? I truly hope and pray that I can, if not for me! than for our kids and that someone!
And then you'd had the gall to think that when I'd shown back up, that it was to be put back on so easily as the costume jewelry that some people trade on and off as easily as other's switch out their underwear or their lovers! and you honestly claim to have known me at all?
if you'd honestly think that I'd come back for you after that, then you'd not known me at all!
though there are many things that you'd not truly known.
even though I had admitted that I needed, yes needed, a man too. I did love you. I did want you to always to have been in my life. always my wife! and I; always your friend. your caretaker. your mental equal. one of the parts that helped you feel whole!
though you now claim, that I never loved you. never cared for you. never wanted you. only wanted our kids from you.
they'll always be our kids! and I'll want them to always be our kids! even when they are grown!
I only want the care of our kids now, so that they can grow! they can know! know; what care is! what safe is! what clean is! how did we get this far off course? how did we forget this much? how can we hate each other this much?
could I bare another ring someday, with someone else? I truly hope and pray that I can, if not for me! than for our kids and that someone!
