Well.. I've arrived home.. And what such a sorry state I am in..

"Just a uh.. Emotional rant..

I'm not taking this so well..

I feel so strange.
I feel like everything I ever wanted, everything I dreamed for, everything I had prayed for..came true..

And then it was ripped from me..
I feel physically torn, as the shock of the heartbreak slowly sets in..

So many years.. Right there.. And I felt like I blinked and missed all of it.. It all went by so fast. I got so little time for how long I've waited.

The emotional agony, integrity being shredded away into fine ribbons as I fail at keeping the tears away. The skin around my eyes have been rubbed raw with how often I have to wipe them.

I'm in such turmoil.. I don't understand..

If it isn't forever, why is this happening..?
Why do I feel like I've had my heart torn from my chest? Why do I feel like I've had the most precious thing, torn from my embrace?

Why can't I stop crying..? I don't understand..

I can't communicate how absolutely blessed I feel to show you, to give you my love.

Maybe it's because I can't stand the thought of being away from you..
Is it not natural then, to part ways with your love, knowing it isn't forever, yet to still fell this way..?"
-taken from my emotional meltdown on Facebook.

I don't know how long this will last. I feel drained and stripped..