So I'm sure some of you have wondering why drawing-wise I've been totally inactive lately. Truthfully, it's because I've been having a lot of trouble focusing.

Three months ago I went to the dentist because my tooth broke and I counted on them to fix it. Of course, the dentist found five cavities (one being inside the broken tooth) that needed to be fixed. One of which he said could become so extreme that it would become a root canal if we didn't fix it.

So I did the only thing I thought I could do. I took out a loan and I go the work done. Because I currently have no medical or dental insurance. He did the work, and then I started experiencing more pain than I'd had from the broken tooth. He told me that the fillings needed to be filed down because they were making my teeth too big and throwing of the ligaments and *insert dental speak here*. So I let him file them down.

Upon leaving, I was stupidly thirsty. So I bought a coke when we stopped at the grocery store. I was still completely numb at this point, but taking a single drink of that ice cold coke shocked me with intense tooth pain. It basically felt like the two teeth he'd done the fillings in suddenly had exposed nerves.

I called them, along with two other dentists to get second opinions and I was told by all of them that it would be sensitive for a little while and to give it some time. About 4 weeks at most. So then I had to wait a month. A whole month of grueling pain in which I could only chew on my left side. After that I got sick and then my mom came into town so obviously that threw my timing off a bit. She, I called them and scheduled an appointment, and guess what....

The Dentist that did all of my work was no longer working for them. The current dentist had her nurses take new exrays of just the right side and they wouldn't totally tell me what was going on. She just said that I had to come back another day (two fucking weeks later) and she would re-fill them.

So what else could I do? I made the appointment. That appointment was for today.

However some time last week, my left side started to hurt suddenly too. It was the same type of pain: intense sensitivity to both cold and hot, and pain upon pressure. It left me chewing with my front teeth until I got to go in today.

So not only did she take two hours to do these fillings, she suckered me into doing another one that I couldn't actually pay for and they didn't tell me till AFTER the fact that my dental loan wouldn't cover it. She also was complaining non stop the whole time about having 'missing hand pieces'. The nurses were switched out THREE times over the course of my time there. The first one was a complete nimrod and put the numbing gel on the WRONG tooth that needed to be numbed. Which means I got stabbed with the needle without being numbed first. She couldn't take exrays on her own like the other nurses could. The tool she was supposed to use she wound up tossing aside and she held the plate in place while she had another nurse push the button. It took her about 10 tries to do what another nurse had done in a single try for three different teeth.

I can't even put into words how unhappy this whole experience has made me. I seem to be getting better now, but I'm still pretty sore where they did the work and I want to give myself a few more days to recover.

On top of all of that, while my roomie was in the waiting room, they overheard talk from a government worker who was going there to get his teeth worked on and this dental office (Aspen Dental if anyone wants to know) COMPLETELY LOST HIS FILE. And his Daughter's file too. How do you completely lose two patient files like that?!

So yeah. Between the stress of all of this dental stuff, the pain, and me switching between jobs to get to a better one and get out of the complete shit job, I just haven't been able to focus on drawing at all. Everything hurts and all I can seem to do is completely zone out on stupid shows from years ago.

Here's to hoping that I'll finally be able to jump back into the fray again. I still owe a single commission that I basically permanently have up on my windows, and I hate that I've made this super patient person wait this long.
I haven't even managed to do something of my own personal characters as a warmup to get me going.

I just want things to go back to normal soon.