I've been doing a little thinking about my association with this site.

I don't know what I've been feeling lately. But as of lately I've been thinking of what I'm doing here in furaffinity. I know I'm not doing furry artwork and such, and I guess that irritates some people. I wish I could but I just do not have any confidence, motivation, or drive to do anything really. I cant even doodle without my mind and body stressing out to a point where I just want to quit. It saddens me very deeply to where I guess one could cry.

I will come back to full fledged art pieces but....not now.

I wish I could explain this better to you folks. I hope many of you understand.

This isn't easy as it is just taxing on my mind as well as my spirit. There's many other factors as well, but won't go into it.

I have so much ambition and intent in me.

However in my current mindset, I'm not sure I belong here anymore.
Sure only about a drop of people enjoy my armor works, and that's enjoyable to some extent. But I just dont feel like I'm needed. It saddens, frustrates, and annoys me to know that people can't appreciate more simpler and also extreme detailed non sexualized art. I'd like to say more but I'm afraid I would only upset people and engage in some non intelligent conversations. I see it more on a psychological level.

Anyways, I'm still debating if I should just leave this site. Not deactivate or just up and delete everything, but rather just not check it anymore.

I am in the progress of doing something to help me though. I can only hope it can break through my own limits.