Pressure is what every high schooler might have experienced every once in a while in their school life. In my third term this year I have been having that sense of pressure but has been on the back on my mind. After last week with having a great time with prom with my date and with my friends I felt that sense of "Life", having no worries about what else is going on in life and just enjoying what I'm doing now. However a few days ago, after getting results from my two science mocks (which are Cs) I was anxiously waiting for my biology mock with knowing that I did the best I could but when the results came in a presence of this weight came crashing onto my shoulders, even though the grade was good and better than the other mocks, with how some of my answers were considered wrong and I didn't answer the questions the examiners want me to answer.

And what is worst with having that sense of expectations is how my teacher expects me to do something about my issues with maths (my grades for math are not good) and with have my teacher is saying how I'm 'reluctant' to seek out to other teacher and how I was recommended to do work to improve. EVEN THOUGH I AM DOING THOSE RECOMMENDATIONS THAT THE TEACHER HAS GENEROUSLY GAVE US. With opportunities to go to interventions and do past papers yet she seemed to not acknowledge my attitude to do better at math...

Yesterday, after enjoying my final assembly with all of my friends and reminiscing the times we spent together and promising to never leave and go forth to six form with each other, we were given our final reports. And with my report, most were fine but with math and all, I was told to now focus on the matter at hand, leaving me with the weight of pressure once again landing on my shoulders. I discussed it with my parents about my predicament and ask me "What can we do to help you" I answered with motivation and with my dad giving that motivation my mom answered something that triggered the crack... "Give me and A" and after a few minutes... I cracked under pressure and just turned into this mess of emotions, apologizing to my parents for not seeking their expectations and just crying and crying and crying until I couldn't even breathe. Then me and my parents have a session that I will take at heart until I die.

My dad told me that they don't and will never compare me to anyone else and will always want me to be me. He told how the world and the lives we live in will always have us be put under pressure, young and old, we all will that pressure and will have to find a way around it so that nothing bad happens and to keep a straight path that makes me happy, doing things that I enjoy and never step off of that path or else I might end up miserable. Dad and Mom says that they want me to be happy so they can be happy and keep the circle that keeps us as family and never wants me to think that they never expect something from return with taking care of me. But not the like the education system, the system that pushes students to the limit to get into collage, to have teachers to be recognized positively as a good teacher to their students so more potential students may come, so those same teachers can get only one thing... more money. Most people in the world would do things for just nothing but money, not for something they enjoy but for something that they believe keeps them alive. But not me, I have a passion and that is art, I only live to do stuff that I enjoy, and I believe that everyone else should.

Keep on moving the straight path that makes you happy and even at times of pressure, friends, families and supportive people will always be there to help, to help you keep on that path so you won't end up with a life with nothing.

With all of this, I will be less active this art and will be focusing on my studies, so... wish me luck and I hope you continue to live to the fullest.