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8 years ago
✟ ✟ ✟ ✟ ✟ Hey guysss, I know it's been such a long time and probably none of you remember me by now :v But it's understandable, I've been really inactive these past few years and made no effort to be more active despite the numerous promises to do so. It's not that I'm lazy or can't keep promises, but I very rarely find inspiration to draw and finish (AND PUBLISH) something... decent. And it's going to be kinda hard working all the way up again, so idk... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Anyway, I've got a few news about my life (that you may or may not be interested in) and I wanted to tell you.
🌸 First of all, my family and I finally moved on late November 2016! The apartment we were living in was too damn expensive for us, my perents were struggling more and more everyday paying the rent The pain really wasn't worth it, the place was small, the zone was terrible, and there were a lot of walls covered with moisture with no maintenance at all from the owners. Also I fucking hated these two old shitfucks.
Our new place is a little bigger, but just enough for the three of us. And it's just across the street of a shopping mall, so... bonus points. We STILL have to tidy up a lot of shit here and the division for the rooms hasn't been made yet. But that's the good news! I'll have my own room again after almost 10 years! Meanwhile, we're still sleeping with our mattresses on the floor in the same room xD I could build up my bed again, but I don't wannaaa, I want the divisions done first. The funniest part was my cat got used to the place much faster than us, lol.
🌸 Second, we had no internet service all this time since we moved x___x I'd ocasionally have to go to the shopping mall to steal Wi-Fi and check my social medias and other things like mails and app updates. But no more! Last week, May 10th, we got new internet and phone service :'D I was sooooo happy, holy shit. Now I'm catching up with a fuck ton of things I couldn't keep up with for months, YA HEAR ME? MONTHS.
The problem is... I became unaccustomed to speaking/writing english for my lack of practice... Also to my own keyboard xD I'm typing so slow compared to how I used to do it.
🌸 Third, I got diagnosed with (social) anxiety disorder and... yea... It was noticeable, but having professionals confirm it feels... idk, sad. I've been struggling with the symptoms for years, but it got far worse last year. Even my partner almost broke up with me because of how aggressive and unstable I was... And I understand him fully, I've been selfish and put him through a lot of trouble for so long... I'm really glad he stayed with me after all and still supports me everyday I've been taking medication since and I'm doing pretty well, I feel less nervous, less agressive, less impulsive, etc. But the side effects of discontinuing it are... harsh. Idk, I handle this the best I can, but sometimes I feel like I'll never be "cured", you know? Like it's gonna be an impediment in everything I do and I'm trapped forever. But meh, life's not fair anyway
🌸 And last, but not least, I got a job! It's really not the best, and I still haven't got a cent from it, but hey! It's better than staying home doing shit all day!
I'm a promotion girl at a teenage tourism agency. I go to schools and offer the services of my company so they can travel after they graduate from high school. It's a commission-paid job, so that's shitty.
You know, this job is EVERYTHING that's outside of my comfort-zone: talking to and meeting unknown people, speaking in front of crowds by myself, pretending I like everyone... gosh, it's so frustrating, but I'm slowly adapting to the rest of my coworkers.
And man, every day I go to schools just makes me hate nowaday teenagers more. You're fucking 15-16 years old, YOU THINK YOU KNOW EVERYTHING IN LIFE? YOU PUBESCENT FUCKS. (Says the 20-year-old woman-child...) Aljskdfhsdjkf let's not forget we've all been like that at some point xD Oh well.
Alriiiiiiight, I think this is all for now. If any of you wants to talk to me, just go ahead! I've kinda missed this place. Tho I'm not sure if I'll be able to keep up a proper conversation xD I usually don't know what to talk about.
Looking forward to making more art when I have my room and my computer properly set up! See ya!
Anyway, I've got a few news about my life (that you may or may not be interested in) and I wanted to tell you.
🌸 First of all, my family and I finally moved on late November 2016! The apartment we were living in was too damn expensive for us, my perents were struggling more and more everyday paying the rent The pain really wasn't worth it, the place was small, the zone was terrible, and there were a lot of walls covered with moisture with no maintenance at all from the owners. Also I fucking hated these two old shitfucks.
Our new place is a little bigger, but just enough for the three of us. And it's just across the street of a shopping mall, so... bonus points. We STILL have to tidy up a lot of shit here and the division for the rooms hasn't been made yet. But that's the good news! I'll have my own room again after almost 10 years! Meanwhile, we're still sleeping with our mattresses on the floor in the same room xD I could build up my bed again, but I don't wannaaa, I want the divisions done first. The funniest part was my cat got used to the place much faster than us, lol.
🌸 Second, we had no internet service all this time since we moved x___x I'd ocasionally have to go to the shopping mall to steal Wi-Fi and check my social medias and other things like mails and app updates. But no more! Last week, May 10th, we got new internet and phone service :'D I was sooooo happy, holy shit. Now I'm catching up with a fuck ton of things I couldn't keep up with for months, YA HEAR ME? MONTHS.
The problem is... I became unaccustomed to speaking/writing english for my lack of practice... Also to my own keyboard xD I'm typing so slow compared to how I used to do it.
🌸 Third, I got diagnosed with (social) anxiety disorder and... yea... It was noticeable, but having professionals confirm it feels... idk, sad. I've been struggling with the symptoms for years, but it got far worse last year. Even my partner almost broke up with me because of how aggressive and unstable I was... And I understand him fully, I've been selfish and put him through a lot of trouble for so long... I'm really glad he stayed with me after all and still supports me everyday I've been taking medication since and I'm doing pretty well, I feel less nervous, less agressive, less impulsive, etc. But the side effects of discontinuing it are... harsh. Idk, I handle this the best I can, but sometimes I feel like I'll never be "cured", you know? Like it's gonna be an impediment in everything I do and I'm trapped forever. But meh, life's not fair anyway
🌸 And last, but not least, I got a job! It's really not the best, and I still haven't got a cent from it, but hey! It's better than staying home doing shit all day!
I'm a promotion girl at a teenage tourism agency. I go to schools and offer the services of my company so they can travel after they graduate from high school. It's a commission-paid job, so that's shitty.
You know, this job is EVERYTHING that's outside of my comfort-zone: talking to and meeting unknown people, speaking in front of crowds by myself, pretending I like everyone... gosh, it's so frustrating, but I'm slowly adapting to the rest of my coworkers.
And man, every day I go to schools just makes me hate nowaday teenagers more. You're fucking 15-16 years old, YOU THINK YOU KNOW EVERYTHING IN LIFE? YOU PUBESCENT FUCKS. (Says the 20-year-old woman-child...) Aljskdfhsdjkf let's not forget we've all been like that at some point xD Oh well.
Alriiiiiiight, I think this is all for now. If any of you wants to talk to me, just go ahead! I've kinda missed this place. Tho I'm not sure if I'll be able to keep up a proper conversation xD I usually don't know what to talk about.
Looking forward to making more art when I have my room and my computer properly set up! See ya!
