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I'm Not Dead (somewhat)
8 years ago
Hay guys
Sorry for being quiet as of late, I've just been under a lot of stress lately.
I've been looking to finally try to get a house of my own (to rent) for the past couple weeks, and it has put me in a really bad mood. One reason is because some jackass piece of shit has been trying to scam me by posting fake ads, posing as a reverend, a deaf old lady, and a person with a dying mom in the hospital. truly a grade "S" bastard. It infuriates me that I can't track him down and slit his throat.
the second reason it has been putting me in a bad mood is the fact that despite being employed in a supposedly special field that I had to get a $30K degree for, I can't even afford to rent a home of my own! It is reminding me again that I am severely under-paid, and my employer is trying to make it like he is doing me a favor as he is screwing me. I mean, I make less money than a burger-flipper at In-n-Out for god's sake, and they aren't working a job with a high risk of getting killed! (oh yeah, I was almost killed on Monday too, when a steel pipe came loose from a pole and nearly crushed my skull. I barely jumped out of the way in time).
So yeah, a little on edge...
In other news, I have a meeting with a mortgage lender to discuss what I should do to start planning to try and actually purchase a house. As it turns out, buying a house is actually generally cheaper then renting. Unfortunately, I need to be working in the same field for at least two years in order to qualify for a loan, so I won't be able to qualify for at least another year and three months. But, I suppose now is a perfect time to start planning. I REALLY don't want to be tied to California, but after thinking about it, I realized that when I think I am ready to leave, I will have the option to rent my house out, turning it into a potential source of income. That is, if I am even able to ever purchase a house. That will depend entirely on my financial state when the time comes, and whether or not I am able to save up a down payment by then.
Something else I'm gonna have to deal with soon is school. It is finally the time for me to sign up for college classes in order to try to get a new degree. Of course I have to go through getting my associate degree again, since no schools accept the degree I got from ITT, so it will probably be another five years before I can attain my goal of a bachelor degree.
However, I am starting to have second thoughts about my career choice again. My current job is absolutely miserable, and is supposedly in my field, and I am beginning to wonder if ALL jobs in this field will be like this, working for some rich bastard in a retarded company forced to follow retarded instructions to work on shotty systems.
I want to be able to work on fun things, cool things, like electronic toys and robotics. But, I'm starting to feel that that dream is completely unattainable and farfetched. I'm hoping that if I am able to get my own place, and work on my own projects, it might rekindle my passion for electronic technology, but I'm having little faith that it will.
I remember meeting someone at BABS Con who was shooting for the same degree I am, and he wound up changing his field of work to work on things like animation and videogame development instead, and I am starting to wonder if I should try doing that myself. The problem is, I'm getting older. I'm getting close to 30 now. I always pictured myself at 30 as having my career well on its way, being a home owner, and raising a family. But here I am, merely two years from 30, and I'm still single, my life is in shambles, my career nonexistent, and living in an 18 foot camper trailer in my mom's front yard.
I thought that working hard and staying in school would make me successful, but somehow, I still wound up being a fucking looser.
Now, I'm stuck working hard and trying to go through school, just because I literally have no idea of what else to do.
So yeah.... stressed
Sorry for being quiet as of late, I've just been under a lot of stress lately.
I've been looking to finally try to get a house of my own (to rent) for the past couple weeks, and it has put me in a really bad mood. One reason is because some jackass piece of shit has been trying to scam me by posting fake ads, posing as a reverend, a deaf old lady, and a person with a dying mom in the hospital. truly a grade "S" bastard. It infuriates me that I can't track him down and slit his throat.
the second reason it has been putting me in a bad mood is the fact that despite being employed in a supposedly special field that I had to get a $30K degree for, I can't even afford to rent a home of my own! It is reminding me again that I am severely under-paid, and my employer is trying to make it like he is doing me a favor as he is screwing me. I mean, I make less money than a burger-flipper at In-n-Out for god's sake, and they aren't working a job with a high risk of getting killed! (oh yeah, I was almost killed on Monday too, when a steel pipe came loose from a pole and nearly crushed my skull. I barely jumped out of the way in time).
So yeah, a little on edge...
In other news, I have a meeting with a mortgage lender to discuss what I should do to start planning to try and actually purchase a house. As it turns out, buying a house is actually generally cheaper then renting. Unfortunately, I need to be working in the same field for at least two years in order to qualify for a loan, so I won't be able to qualify for at least another year and three months. But, I suppose now is a perfect time to start planning. I REALLY don't want to be tied to California, but after thinking about it, I realized that when I think I am ready to leave, I will have the option to rent my house out, turning it into a potential source of income. That is, if I am even able to ever purchase a house. That will depend entirely on my financial state when the time comes, and whether or not I am able to save up a down payment by then.
Something else I'm gonna have to deal with soon is school. It is finally the time for me to sign up for college classes in order to try to get a new degree. Of course I have to go through getting my associate degree again, since no schools accept the degree I got from ITT, so it will probably be another five years before I can attain my goal of a bachelor degree.
However, I am starting to have second thoughts about my career choice again. My current job is absolutely miserable, and is supposedly in my field, and I am beginning to wonder if ALL jobs in this field will be like this, working for some rich bastard in a retarded company forced to follow retarded instructions to work on shotty systems.
I want to be able to work on fun things, cool things, like electronic toys and robotics. But, I'm starting to feel that that dream is completely unattainable and farfetched. I'm hoping that if I am able to get my own place, and work on my own projects, it might rekindle my passion for electronic technology, but I'm having little faith that it will.
I remember meeting someone at BABS Con who was shooting for the same degree I am, and he wound up changing his field of work to work on things like animation and videogame development instead, and I am starting to wonder if I should try doing that myself. The problem is, I'm getting older. I'm getting close to 30 now. I always pictured myself at 30 as having my career well on its way, being a home owner, and raising a family. But here I am, merely two years from 30, and I'm still single, my life is in shambles, my career nonexistent, and living in an 18 foot camper trailer in my mom's front yard.
I thought that working hard and staying in school would make me successful, but somehow, I still wound up being a fucking looser.
Now, I'm stuck working hard and trying to go through school, just because I literally have no idea of what else to do.
So yeah.... stressed
I know what its like. I have a IT degree but no one around here will hire me unless I get 2/3 years experience first.
Yeah, I have that same problem over here, only with me, they want experience in a very specific part of my field, like solar companies want experience with solar, and PLC companies want experience with PLCs. You gotta wonder how these companies expect to find new employees in the field if they all want experienced workers?
"You gotta wonder how these companies expect to find new employees in the field if they all want experienced workers?" That's easy here they whine to the goverment that they cannot get anyone locally and get permission to hire people from overseas.
Over here a lot of the jobs just seem to go to illegal mexicans, whom don't even have an ounce of training. It really is amazing; they claim to want people with all of these qualifications, turn down dozens of candidates with proper training, and end up hiring some mexican that can't tell a wire from a shoelace.
I've never had any problem with it even when the wires are faded I can still tell the difference it's just the tests that I have trouble with.
One advantage of living on an island is we don't have much trouble with illegals.