So I turn 30 next month, and I'm feeling a bit conflicted about it? On one hand getting older is always a little scary, but I'm also excited?
To be honest I never thought I'd get this far, for the longest time I thought I'd be long dead and forgotten by now.
This might sound depressing, idk, at least my partner thought so when I were having a bust of loud excitement over it a whiles back.
Suppose it is in a way, but to me it's not about how troubled and depressing my teenage/young adult years where, but that I made it through them.
That I made it to the place I am today. A place where I'm loved, secure, no longer suicidal.. and while my mental illness is still hard to live with,
I am.. Happy.

On another note, I think I might just do another request stream later, while I'm still feeling giddy.