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I've just about had it...
8 years ago
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I keep telling myself "I'll get better, there's always room for improvement"
I guess I'm kidding myself, I just don't see why I'm trying anymore to draw art.
When I clearly can't.
Been on here for nearly what 3 years? and have little to no improvement within that time.
Been focused on work, bills, etc, and when I thought I had a chance I'd draw. I can't manage my time to dedicate myself to what I should've in the first place.
I wasn't expecting a lot of faves, or a lot of views.
but it would've helped... At least in a sense it did make me want to just keep getting better regardless.
Hell I still remember I tried to do commissions and even then I struggled and looking back, those works of "art" were (and STILL are) atrocious.
I can't write either it seems, when you get a guy that's several years younger on you, calling out on terrible punctuation and pacing. well whoop de fucking do I'm sorry I'm not a god damn prestige, yeah the writing is shit could easily have said it in a better tone. Without sounding like a pompous asshole who knows everything.
Then it drives my jealousy through the roof seeing new faces starting out. Blasting what I considered "art" at the time away due to their actual skill (even thought they say "oh I just doodled, Oh this pose is just something I messed with, etc" , and people start asking for commissions or requests from them and more word gets out, From artist who actually inspired me and thought would be neat to get a comment from them. But I have come to terms that my art just doesn't have that impact.
I've literally had ONE person who attempted to get my name out there, and anther has tried. but even then I lacked the skill to show them my gratitude. I feel terrible.
Does this mean I'm leaving the site?
Maybe, I really don't know, I like getting commissions and that's always nice to see my idea come out with another artist. and chatting with you guys.
But don't expect my own artwork from me, because I just simply can't do it. more like I can but, I can't really "WOW" anyone with my own art.
I'm not some artist I'm just a dreamer.
Who can color OTHER people's art decently at best.
Maybe those that tell me I should stop or those damn doubts are true... I don't want them to be. But now I just don't even know.
What have I really done to make an impact?
Nothing....
I guess I'm kidding myself, I just don't see why I'm trying anymore to draw art.
When I clearly can't.
Been on here for nearly what 3 years? and have little to no improvement within that time.
Been focused on work, bills, etc, and when I thought I had a chance I'd draw. I can't manage my time to dedicate myself to what I should've in the first place.
I wasn't expecting a lot of faves, or a lot of views.
but it would've helped... At least in a sense it did make me want to just keep getting better regardless.
Hell I still remember I tried to do commissions and even then I struggled and looking back, those works of "art" were (and STILL are) atrocious.
I can't write either it seems, when you get a guy that's several years younger on you, calling out on terrible punctuation and pacing. well whoop de fucking do I'm sorry I'm not a god damn prestige, yeah the writing is shit could easily have said it in a better tone. Without sounding like a pompous asshole who knows everything.
Then it drives my jealousy through the roof seeing new faces starting out. Blasting what I considered "art" at the time away due to their actual skill (even thought they say "oh I just doodled, Oh this pose is just something I messed with, etc" , and people start asking for commissions or requests from them and more word gets out, From artist who actually inspired me and thought would be neat to get a comment from them. But I have come to terms that my art just doesn't have that impact.
I've literally had ONE person who attempted to get my name out there, and anther has tried. but even then I lacked the skill to show them my gratitude. I feel terrible.
Does this mean I'm leaving the site?
Maybe, I really don't know, I like getting commissions and that's always nice to see my idea come out with another artist. and chatting with you guys.
But don't expect my own artwork from me, because I just simply can't do it. more like I can but, I can't really "WOW" anyone with my own art.
I'm not some artist I'm just a dreamer.
Who can color OTHER people's art decently at best.
Maybe those that tell me I should stop or those damn doubts are true... I don't want them to be. But now I just don't even know.
What have I really done to make an impact?
Nothing....
