Sucks. Even now I wish I was still at blfc. Ha. There were more people i wanted to meet and even more people i wished I could hang out with more. Though one thing I realized is how out of touch I am with my furry side.. see.. for my entire life ive lived in a repressed household. Very religious, anti-everythibg house. So i have to repress all furry and bisexual feelings.

So its a bit jarring for me at a con as I have trouble adjusting. Dont get me wrong though, I love it. But i feel socially awkward when meeting people from the fandom as my brain is reciting what my parents would say and it takes a lot of willpower to make it shut the fuck up.

This also tells me that I gotta get involved with the furry community more too.. just not sure how because of my living conditions.. honestly tho I think my best bet.. is to get the hell out of this depressed household.. I'm getting close tho.. 18k saved up. One day it will come.