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Tonight is one of those nights...vent
8 years ago
where i wish i didnt exist..
do you remember how i tell u my mother is abusive?
i feel like a 5 year old..
i want to get out of here... i need to get out..
she deleted the recently finished drawings.. thankgod i saved the wips and ychs on a usb.
i will be using a friend's laptop because she hates my art that much..
i feel rejected by my own family, thrown into the garbage by them.. and all i want, is their acceptance..
i want to hug my mother and kiss her cheek without her thinking i am a nuisance or a waste of effort...
am i really a piece of trash on her life?...
i want to be normal... i really want to be just a girl on this world, wear pretty dresses without getting told i am too fat to do wear.. which i am... not i think. I am 60kg...
i want to draw whatever i want without being told that my art is not going somewhere... this is why i NEVER wanted to post online..
to be told that i am ugly, fat and stupid by the people i used to love...
sigh.. i am sorry again... i reall dont know what to do or where to go..
do you remember how i tell u my mother is abusive?
i feel like a 5 year old..
i want to get out of here... i need to get out..
she deleted the recently finished drawings.. thankgod i saved the wips and ychs on a usb.
i will be using a friend's laptop because she hates my art that much..
i feel rejected by my own family, thrown into the garbage by them.. and all i want, is their acceptance..
i want to hug my mother and kiss her cheek without her thinking i am a nuisance or a waste of effort...
am i really a piece of trash on her life?...
i want to be normal... i really want to be just a girl on this world, wear pretty dresses without getting told i am too fat to do wear.. which i am... not i think. I am 60kg...
i want to draw whatever i want without being told that my art is not going somewhere... this is why i NEVER wanted to post online..
to be told that i am ugly, fat and stupid by the people i used to love...
sigh.. i am sorry again... i reall dont know what to do or where to go..
I understand how you feel. My mother lately has this obsession with wanting me to dress conservative af. Like 90 degree temps in Texas and asking me to wear long pants only because she works for a church.
She's made snide comments about me wearing shorts because I have thicc thighs that shorten my shorts a bit.
I'M ABOUT TO BE 20.
I seriously feel like she's obsessed with the thought she can dress my 7yo brother however and force him into Christianity, meanwhile she can't do shit to me. My parents aren't too fond of my art either, but they just don't ask to see it.
If no one else will accept you I will ♥ You can always reach out to me and talk to me. You're not ugly, nor fat, or stupid. You are just a broken soul that needs some love again ♥ We've all been there.
(sorry for rambling, it's been a long day.. just went through a huge change in my life that took a huge toll on me)