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(Vent) Here we go again
8 years ago
On this episode of Arium over analyzes her feelings, I'm talking about my feelings torwards the fandom.
As the days go on I stay loyal to the fandom, I've been here since 2010, it's a big part of my life and excited me. Going to TFF legimately made me forget about my depression for a bit, I actually felt welcomed and loved. As expected I met new friends and nice people. But despite all my good experiences I switch between loving the fandom and resenting it. Not like I want to resent it.. For a while I've been trying to figure out why the hell I think like this, and I think I know now
(Boy this is a abut to turn into an essay lol)
The Sexual Diversity, the Hypersexuality of it, and public stigma. Now I'm not saying I hat the diversity, I love it. I'm pansexual myself.. but I'm also fighting with I guess internalized homophobia.. not torwards others but more towards myself.. I guess growing up in a homophobic household while wanting to make my mother proud fucked me up a bit considering I'm a hand full of things she hates... So seeing the amount of gay, lesbian, and everything content, relationships just goes back to that. I waver between loving seeing it and hating it
As for the Hypersexuality.. I've never been an outgoing person sexually, I can deal with it as long as its not shoved into my face. Which can usually be easily solved, turn on sfw filters. But at the same time since I don't like it as much it kind of makes me feel immature and inferior because sexual content seems like such a large part of the fandom.. I feel left out, I shouldn't its unreasonable but I still do for some reason.
Finally the public stigma.. I know tons of people who hate furries, so many.. for my entire life as a furry Ive had to deal with so many comments about how I'm gross, disgusting, I fuck dogs. THe ones that are as jokes from friends are fine. but when its someone being serious, especially when it my own "friend" telling me what I allegedly do saying I'm gross is hurts. And because of this the social part of me kind of wants to fit in with everyday society.. I've begun to hate myself and the fandom, as great as its been to me..
Idk if any of this makes sense, its more so for me to get some feelings off of my chest
As the days go on I stay loyal to the fandom, I've been here since 2010, it's a big part of my life and excited me. Going to TFF legimately made me forget about my depression for a bit, I actually felt welcomed and loved. As expected I met new friends and nice people. But despite all my good experiences I switch between loving the fandom and resenting it. Not like I want to resent it.. For a while I've been trying to figure out why the hell I think like this, and I think I know now
(Boy this is a abut to turn into an essay lol)
The Sexual Diversity, the Hypersexuality of it, and public stigma. Now I'm not saying I hat the diversity, I love it. I'm pansexual myself.. but I'm also fighting with I guess internalized homophobia.. not torwards others but more towards myself.. I guess growing up in a homophobic household while wanting to make my mother proud fucked me up a bit considering I'm a hand full of things she hates... So seeing the amount of gay, lesbian, and everything content, relationships just goes back to that. I waver between loving seeing it and hating it
As for the Hypersexuality.. I've never been an outgoing person sexually, I can deal with it as long as its not shoved into my face. Which can usually be easily solved, turn on sfw filters. But at the same time since I don't like it as much it kind of makes me feel immature and inferior because sexual content seems like such a large part of the fandom.. I feel left out, I shouldn't its unreasonable but I still do for some reason.
Finally the public stigma.. I know tons of people who hate furries, so many.. for my entire life as a furry Ive had to deal with so many comments about how I'm gross, disgusting, I fuck dogs. THe ones that are as jokes from friends are fine. but when its someone being serious, especially when it my own "friend" telling me what I allegedly do saying I'm gross is hurts. And because of this the social part of me kind of wants to fit in with everyday society.. I've begun to hate myself and the fandom, as great as its been to me..
Idk if any of this makes sense, its more so for me to get some feelings off of my chest
I think, personally, the way to deal with feeling this way towards the community is just to keep a safe distance. Especially if you're not interested in the sexual stuff. Furaffinity is kind of a big mix between sfw children, and nsfw adults willing to spend their paychecks on yiffy work. Truth be told, as much as I dislike deviantart for its immaturity, it can be a better website if you wish to keep away from the adult side. A LOT of kids on there are actually hate how sexualized the fandom is, and some (embarrassingly enough but true) even have started calling themsevles "emo dogs" instead of furries.
IDK I just don't really feel all that weird to say that furries are embarrassing and at times gross, because it's very true. The public stigma, when dealing with beastiality and whatnot, is truly disgusting and untrue, though, and anyone who believes that is either assuming things/not informed, or ignorant and probably spends all their time on 4chan. Maybe if the internet wasn't loaded with furry porn their opinions would change but ???