Seems it's been awhile since I've even looked at this thing.... Suppose nothing really has changed bunch of fake people wrapped up in a race for approval from other fake people.

Well, not everyone... Just most of us.

You ever wonder why you do some of the things you do?

Like you set your sights on something. Not even something you want but something that will make
Someone else really happy. An even if that something is a complete pain in the ass. You give it your all anyway. An then after it's all over an you wipe your brow. Do you ever look back an wonder why?

I've been pondering that alot lately.

Why? What's the point?

It seems lately I've been surrounded by lies an deceit an false promises.... All of which during
The single most stressful thing I have ever done... An I didn't even do it for myself.

I don't know why I am publicly writing this.... Maybe the lack of someone to talk to or care.. Maybe a new perspective.

All I know is I suppose I owe a huge apology to the people I critiqued in the past for "putting all Thier issues on the net." An here I am bieng what I hate most. A hypocrite.

I will say I did try to talk to others but I guess I don't have the best safety net under my tight rope. Don't worry don't worry. I didn't fight this hard in life to take it away. I guess I'm just..... Confused is all.

Anyways I appreciate your time. Once again sorry for bieng hypocritical. I guess maybe we don't always have someone there an this is the best way to get it off your chest.