no matter how good things go, my brain will always find a moment to go "oh you have no reason to be sad? let's make ya feel like utter shit for no fucking reason"

i'll get out of this mood eventually, it's just crap at the moment, besides, i got allot of fun things to look forward to in the future.
which includes the fact this fox may move out soon, FINALLY GOING ON MY OWN!!!!!

so, with going to receive help in finding a job, AND now the news i'll be getting my own place, that's some good steps forward,
just as i have several events to look forward to, such as some furwalks but mostly Dutch furdance and eurofurence getting ever closer.

plus the idea that i'm going to stick some real time into turning my fursuit making hobby into a actual business, i think i reached the
skill level i am pleased enough with to call commission worthy.

it's just......this stupid dark, negative cloud is in the way at the moment......but it will pass.....it always does.......it just takes time.