I am finally able to write an update..
For the past month I have been going through the (mentally) hardest time of my entire life.. It all started from severe side effects from a medication I was on. I have been going through hell since.. I haven't been able to feel happiness since the day before we left Reno, NV (BLFC). I have tried everything.. for a few weeks I couldn't physically function right due to one of the symptoms: Mobile and Cognitive Impairment.. I was horribly depressed and unable to do even the simplest tasks. It was incredibly difficult to even take a shower. That finally wore off, but the depression stayed and got worse, along with my separation anxiety, all of my anxiety really. I was having hysterical crying spells 3-5 times a day, unable to do anything but curl up on the couch deep in my depression. I couldn't handle being alone. Every time My bf went to bed, I would cry and feel like my heart was breaking.. I STILL do... my depression improved a small amount, but is still incredibly bad. I have trouble doing simple things around the house. I can't handle even the smallest amount of pressure or stress.. I cry myself to sleep every night.. I spoke to my doctor and she is even recommending in-patient treatment... that is how bad I am.. This depression is truly crippling.... I'm terrified I'll never feel happiness again.....

Before anyone asks, no, I am not suicidal, thankfully. My doctor obviously took me off the meds with the side effects. She has no idea why this is happening for so long. They are doing a DNA test to see if I metabolize medication poorly, because that would explain a LOT.

I will be reposting this on all my other accounts.
If you have any questions or concerns, please note me..