I hate it. I didn't sleep last night and I didn't sleep tonight. I managed to get a hour nap after dinner but it wasn't good sleep, kinda like that stress sleep where you wake up sweating even though you have a giant fan and air conditioning going. No sleep medication under the sun works on me. At best they just make me drowsy and no energy but not enough to put me out. Honestly, the only thing that really works is getting buzzed/drunk (and I'm a light wieght too so that just takes like two beers and a shot) but I'm not gonna become an alcoholic in order to sleep regularly. I just hate the feeling of being so tired when I'm not laying down but as soon as my head hits the pillow I feel like I could run a marathon. I go through insomnia spells like this. I prob won't be able to sleep tomorrow night either. I prob will manage to pass out at 7 am Thursday morning and then sleep for 12 plus hours. I also hate how I effect others around me when I'm going through these spells. I'm just so grouchy and can't make decisions in this state. I pace and stare at things not doing anything, sometimes up to a hour. It's even worse when I'm sleeping with the bf. I'll toss and turn, get up and leave to keep my mind off of things, get back in bed to toss and turn and eventually get up again. He's always worrying about me but all I can do is tell him that I'll be ok. This is how it has always been, I just wanted to make a journal to save my sanity.