Super shit but super interesting.

My dad left my whole family and basically ran away to Thailand, my younger sister abused my mother and was kicked out. We have also had a few deaths of close ones, I've never really felt lonelier.
Its been a fucking roller coaster.

On the positive side I've finally manage to get rid of my panic attacks.
Through all this suffering I have grown so much in my self and spiritually! Things are looking up, I'm finally getting my own house! Currently we rent but no more.
I'm SO close to my body weight goal. Literally 6 more pounds to lose. I've lost 72 in total. My push up form is amazing now haha and I can do things I never thought I would be able too!
As of July 15th I'm 4 months into "veganism" and boy its changed my life so much. Its made me super passionate and in a way it's made me more depressed in a way haha but I'm so glad I'm not living in ignorance anymore as I was being a hypocrite to myself saying I love animals that much yet I would consume their bodies. Not to mention how unhealthy it is :(

I have gotten really into clay sculpting however with all the shit still going on between me and my dad and the house move its so stressful I just rarely get motivation. It's been years since I've really been in the mood to draw.

Not for much longer.. I've been really feeling the impulse and as soon as the move is done and over with and I'm settled I'll have all the time and inspo then.

In the mean time, I'm still here on FA mainly lurking.

This is really a journal to help myself more than anything, its a way to /vent and I find furries really understand this shit.

-Chow!