So, this one is a bit of a ranty type of journal, so those who think I bitch, moan and rant too much, y'all can ignore this and carry on with your daily lives.

Anyways, I never thought back when I first became a fur, let alone, growing up that I would ever hit a point where I've become so lonely and vulnerable, but I've hit it. And the worst part is, is that even if I'm in a group of people, or having people messaging me, I still feel lonely. It's a bit odd, but it's honestly how I feel, I'm not too sure what I can do, but I really am trying to work on a lot of my issues, but the loneliness seems to be a huge issue for me, and I do want to thank those furs who do message me daily, and try their bests to be a constant part of my life, your kindness is not unnoticed, and I appreciate it dearly.

Another thing that is bothering me, is my inability to further myself in life, I feel as though I've hit a snag and just stopped trying to move forward, I know that is all my own doing, and it's pretty sucky, but I am trying to work on it.

In conclusion, I just feel overwhelming lonely, even though there are people in my life, I just feel like I'm still not accepted here or irl, but I want to, I need to, work on bettering myself, so I can bring the people that I want in my life. I never used to be a downer of a person, I used to be happy a lot, and I want that back.

I need to better myself. I want to better myself. Change is going to come.