Well to start off, my father is in some really bad shape, he went to the hospital monday with some really nasty pains, he has been having problems for some time. Pretty much ever since he had his foot ran over by a car, he has been out of work, and to make things worse he blew his back out not soon after. He has had multiple open heart surgeries with a huge number of bypasses and stints at the same time.

As of lately he has a swallon disk in his back that is causing him more pain then anyone should have to feel, they had him on some meds that were really fucking him up bad, as in seeing thing that are not there and really bad slruy speech. The hardest part was the fact that he does not have hardly any memory and talks about things that never happened, plus he has not been able to walk with out a walker in a few weeks cause of the pain, so his legs are tiny and look very bad.

He has heart problems, arthritis and bad blood sugar/pressure, you can hardly understand him and he is in and out of reality. I hate seeing him like this, this is not how a 56 year old should be, at least not my dad, he was so accepting to me and the whole furry thing, he loves my suit and me as much as he did before. I can hardly stay in the room or even think of him like he is without bursting into tears, they wouldn't let him get the surgery he so baddly needs till the 28 of this month, till then he just suffers, what the fuck kinda insurance does that, and who the fuck can stand by and watch there dad suffer like this?

This is all because of the drugs that he is all meesed up in the head, but with out them he would be in to much pain to want ta live anymore.I know I sure as hell can't take it, nor can my mom and lil brother. I am so scared that I might lose him and not be there for him if it happens, so I have not been online to much as I have been with him as much as I can. They say he will be able to return to work in like 3 monthes, but he may not, judging on the way his legs are atm.

So this is were my life is atm, and I am praying he gets better and is able to work, or my folks will lose everything they have, there house, there cars and there lives as they know it. I am doing what I can to help them out, but I am so strapped for money myself, there is not much I can do other then just be there for both of them, and hold there hands as they go through this. Please wish them luck and pray his health improves, as the furry loving parents they are, he does deserve better treatment then he is getting now.

Sorry for the messy post and scrampled thought, but my brian is kinda a mess and on the frits about this.