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8 years ago
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Ok... so... majority of people Have recently seen a trend with me.. something quite.. bad...
To be honest I believe a lot of people have seen it and it has ended up showing quite a very horrible side of myself that I did not see coming due to have been blinded by someone.
For.. I believe the beginning of this year I had been in a very toxic and abusive relationship with someone.. which in turn ended up costing me... my closest friends who i've held and loved so dearly. Even though it was almost a month ago.. it still hurts to know that.. People who genuinely cared for me literally saw a horrendous side of me that Sickens and hurts me to think about...
Im not going to get into the.. gritty details about this relationship... but it ended up hurting me and Ive been going through a lot. I don't expect sympathy from those whom I had hurt... I know what I did was wrong... But it sucks when you end up with someone who want you to come to them for anything, then pushes you away when you do.. and he had isolated you from all who cared about you...
It sucks...
Its better to come clean about the truth than to just let it eat away at me and have people wondering 'why' I had changed... Thats the reason...
That person alone.. ended up making me fearful of closed relationships...
So I quietly locked up myself and slowly licked my wounds to try and retrieve my old friends. Im sorry to anyone whom I've been cruel or cold to for these past few months...
its not like me... and Life has thrown me a couple of curveballs... one of which landed me in the er... but thankfully I am fine.. alive.. and well for the most part.
I recently quit my job because they took away 50% of the workforce... but increased the amount of work by 300% for a small group of people. The work needing to be done can be done much more quickly and efficiently IF they had listened to us.. but its whatever..
I also have been having a sarahah as im in a discord and found them to be quite interesting..~ It will be here and on my homepage as well.
Bannys - Sarahah
To be honest I believe a lot of people have seen it and it has ended up showing quite a very horrible side of myself that I did not see coming due to have been blinded by someone.
For.. I believe the beginning of this year I had been in a very toxic and abusive relationship with someone.. which in turn ended up costing me... my closest friends who i've held and loved so dearly. Even though it was almost a month ago.. it still hurts to know that.. People who genuinely cared for me literally saw a horrendous side of me that Sickens and hurts me to think about...
Im not going to get into the.. gritty details about this relationship... but it ended up hurting me and Ive been going through a lot. I don't expect sympathy from those whom I had hurt... I know what I did was wrong... But it sucks when you end up with someone who want you to come to them for anything, then pushes you away when you do.. and he had isolated you from all who cared about you...
It sucks...
Its better to come clean about the truth than to just let it eat away at me and have people wondering 'why' I had changed... Thats the reason...
That person alone.. ended up making me fearful of closed relationships...
So I quietly locked up myself and slowly licked my wounds to try and retrieve my old friends. Im sorry to anyone whom I've been cruel or cold to for these past few months...
its not like me... and Life has thrown me a couple of curveballs... one of which landed me in the er... but thankfully I am fine.. alive.. and well for the most part.
I recently quit my job because they took away 50% of the workforce... but increased the amount of work by 300% for a small group of people. The work needing to be done can be done much more quickly and efficiently IF they had listened to us.. but its whatever..
I also have been having a sarahah as im in a discord and found them to be quite interesting..~ It will be here and on my homepage as well.
Bannys - Sarahah
I've been slowly working up to it trying to be more talkative but sadly has failed.. and I find some solace in solitude.
I rarely if ever talk x..x;