Sometimes just talking or typing this out just helps. Sorry if this isn't a nice upbeat journal but I just need to get this out.

For those that know me personally you know I've had an extremely tough time at work, new management, different policies on how to run things, and all around an unfriendly and combative atmosphere. I've tried to transfer out through the company which would be the most desired option as I'd keep my pay, standing and benefits... yet I am still waiting for ANYTHING anywhere at this point. I've applied for others jobs so I could just outright leave that place, but nothing has come back to me yet.

Yesterday was one of the worst days I've had due to someone hearing something between another coworker and I, they ran with it in a direction that was never intended and reported me on it. After a meeting where I was alone with four of our higher ups I did what I could to resolve it but I'm afraid on if I'll even have a job after all this. I can't stop crying after yesterday. There's so much going through my mind that I just want to get away from all the toxicity around where I work. I've had a hard enough time being where I live now, three years, and none of it has let up on me.

Again sorry for the less than positive message of this, I just needed to get this out, maybe get some help or just kind words. Something to help keep me together till I know what's going to happen.