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Growth is change and change is growth
8 years ago
ive recently been going through some life changes...or i guess changes in myself mentally is a better way of putting it XD Some of these changes have me thinking about another sona/upgrade to my main sona. Now for those who are fans of the contrast fox that is my current sona, that design wont be going anywhere....if anything it would still be a big part of me(ive had that design for like close to 10 years at this point i think) so no worries about a complete over haul ^-^
However i have been thinking about a species change for a loooong time...part of me thinks i might have outgrown the fox species, since alot has changed since i first made it my species of choice. It was my favorite animal for so long, but for somewhat bad reasons. Foxes are smart, they survive on their own and they are crafty enough to evade(or lie in my case) to save themselves.....all this I identified with when i was really small...since i didnt have a good life growing up...and i needed to be crafty and smart to not get abused.
Ive grown alot since that rough part of my life, and i made choices that allowed me to heal from those wounds of an abusive parent....ive become a better person since then and a very much more healthy one at that. This is why im not sure if a fox is a good choice for me any longer...since it represents a part of my life i dont deal with anymore....i worry that keeping the fox will keep those negative connotations with it....change is good and change is growth.
Alot of my time i spent trying to decide if i wanted to be a dragon/reptile instead, as it worked for many reasons my wonderful fiance pointed out....but the other day i made a list of all the "natural" animals i would be besides fox....and now all i can think of is those....that list is
Kangaroo
Lion
Hyena
Bat
and then gryphon XD
All of these animals mean something to me on a personal level and now im fighting my brain to figure out what to do. I love my contrast fox, and as i said i will always keep that...but i want to branch out...i want to discover new parts of me and i dont think i can do that if i stay the fox....i dunno..theres alot more to it then that, but i dont want to bore you XD
At this moment if i had to pick a new species, it would be lion...The Lion King has been in my life for so long, as it has been with others....and apparently a lion is the first thing i was told i wanted to be at 3 years old....TLK means alot to and brings up so many fond things that its hard not to dive right into the fandom....
uuugh.....stupid rant is dumb....and totally not what it was supposed to be XD im just struggling with this, so if theres anyone who has read this far(good job XD) and has had the same thing happen where they switched to a species they felt closer to....please let me know what it was like for you and how you did it...any bit of advice would help
However i have been thinking about a species change for a loooong time...part of me thinks i might have outgrown the fox species, since alot has changed since i first made it my species of choice. It was my favorite animal for so long, but for somewhat bad reasons. Foxes are smart, they survive on their own and they are crafty enough to evade(or lie in my case) to save themselves.....all this I identified with when i was really small...since i didnt have a good life growing up...and i needed to be crafty and smart to not get abused.
Ive grown alot since that rough part of my life, and i made choices that allowed me to heal from those wounds of an abusive parent....ive become a better person since then and a very much more healthy one at that. This is why im not sure if a fox is a good choice for me any longer...since it represents a part of my life i dont deal with anymore....i worry that keeping the fox will keep those negative connotations with it....change is good and change is growth.
Alot of my time i spent trying to decide if i wanted to be a dragon/reptile instead, as it worked for many reasons my wonderful fiance pointed out....but the other day i made a list of all the "natural" animals i would be besides fox....and now all i can think of is those....that list is
Kangaroo
Lion
Hyena
Bat
and then gryphon XD
All of these animals mean something to me on a personal level and now im fighting my brain to figure out what to do. I love my contrast fox, and as i said i will always keep that...but i want to branch out...i want to discover new parts of me and i dont think i can do that if i stay the fox....i dunno..theres alot more to it then that, but i dont want to bore you XD
At this moment if i had to pick a new species, it would be lion...The Lion King has been in my life for so long, as it has been with others....and apparently a lion is the first thing i was told i wanted to be at 3 years old....TLK means alot to and brings up so many fond things that its hard not to dive right into the fandom....
uuugh.....stupid rant is dumb....and totally not what it was supposed to be XD im just struggling with this, so if theres anyone who has read this far(good job XD) and has had the same thing happen where they switched to a species they felt closer to....please let me know what it was like for you and how you did it...any bit of advice would help
