It's been about a month since I posted a journal... my life has been very different. Nearly 30 lbs lighter than I was through a change in diet that has taken me from feeling hungry to skipping meals and generally enjoying the food I eat even more, to studying my stoic readings everyday.

I wanted to examine what it means to differentiate between what is important in this world and what is not, as my readings have taught me. Though I still have my moments of annoyance with things I've learned to let go of the problems in life, people who are foolish and things I can't control. I've come to accept that I am master of my own life and absolutely no one has power over me, and likewise I have power over no one else, this is as it should be. I've made new friends, joined an amazing community of people and have separated from things that were negative in my life. Slowly I worked through my problems and after a long several months I finally feel happy, almost zen-like in my calm and yet overjoyed and excited by the things and people I do pursue.

One thing I have learned to do again was to focus on what is truly important in my life. When I was at my worst I lost track of everything, I worried so much about things I couldn't control and I lost sight of what should of had my focus. I also accepted pains from others because I cared about them and was willing to give, to absorb the blows in hopes that things would get better. Today my focus is utter, I'm aware of two beautiful things in my life that draw me, and with utter focus I pursue those things. I'm happy and content, and each day I contemplate the words in my books, I write, I deal with the anxious feelings of want and excitement I feel during my boring time at work.

I am focused... I will achieve what I desire, through learning, through strength and stability, through stamina, patience, and grit.
I made my choices, now let's see where the path leads.