Alright. Things have been bad. REALLY bad. I'd say this is the worst and darkest point of my life, even. I haven't been me for a long time. Been so caught up in the storm that took hold of my life, I forgot to go looking for me. I lost sight of a lot of things and I let my anger, my emotions in general to beat me. I let them take over, consume me and control the things that I said and did. I'd make an apology but that doesn't do any of us any good, now does it? I'm already admitting I was wrong and I should have been stronger. I should have been better. I wasn't and that's my own fault. I don't expect anyone to understand the demons I have or what it's like to be me on a daily basis. I don't expect anyone to forgive me or forget the bad things I did. So why am I writing this? I'll tell you why. Change. It's time for a change. It's time I went looking for me and found me. It's time I stopped letting my emotions run me and make the decisions I've made. It's time I slayed these demons and it's time I go back to the old me. The fun me. The good me. It's time for a change. This is a declaration of intent. I intend to wash the slate clean to face myself and cross out what I've become. This ends now. No more negativity. No more rage. No more depression. No more self loathing. No more wallowing in my own sorrow. No more.