I am in constant pain, splitting headache, lower back pain, wisdom teeth pain returning With a vengeance, incredibly painful sore throat that not even cough medicine could help and nasty eye infection which caused a lot of irritation.

Now you maybe all thinking "well get some rest"

If only it was that simple because traveling to Oregon to see the solar eclipse is fucking insane and it tested my sanity and my patiences. I was patient enough but my sanity is screwed. Lets see you can't sleep unless you lay your head next to the window due to 2 people squeezed in with you due to my size. Sitting in a car for 9 hours maximum and the fucking heat. 97 degrees of pure sunlight and clear sky and that mother fucking heat! And also lets be remindful that this took place 3 days AFTER my confrontation with my mother and still recovering from it. So combined. Ow I just wanted to put mywelf out of my misery and pain.

Or yeah and to add even more insult to injury, people think was making it up and/or making excuse just to bitch and moan.

Mother fucker if you were in my shoes right now. You'll be singing a different fucking tune like I did.

Thats how much I have gone fucking crazy. It got back to the point I just wanna sleep until either the pain goes away or never wake up again!

...i can't handle this anymore. Let me say my supposely final words.

Don't ever forget me.