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Moving to Boston, personal issues, and 100 watchers
8 years ago
So.... by this time next week I'll be starting my freshmen year of art school in Boston. Hooooly shit - it's both exciting and scary. For those of you who don't know, I'll be studying illustration, so although I might not get to draw dragons as much over the next few months, I'll be learning all about how to make actual art and improve my skills - which, hopefully, will translate into even better dragon drawings!
I also hope being there will help me improve myself, as well.
Without going into too much detail, there are some things about my personality I'm hoping to change - things that have hurt or annoyed some of my closest friends to the point where I fear if I don't change I'll loose them. Much of it pertains to my sense (or lack thereof) of self worth and a tendency to be highly critical towards myself, to the point where I flat-out ignore the things my friends are trying to tell me - things that are only meant to help. This is damaging and counterproductive, and I wish every day that I could somehow take back what I've said in the past, or simply stop acting this way. Much like with art, though, I'll only improve if I put forth effort. The friends I've made in this community over the past year have been a godsend. They've helped me with my art and lifted me out of the dull, lonely existence I led prior to opening up online. In the past few days I've come to realize that there are several issues I need to work out about myself, and feel that this move to the city to begin a new chapter in my life will help with that.
Finally, I recently hit 100 watchers - a milestone that, again, would not have been possible without the help of my friends. I'd like to extent my deepest thanks to everyone who helped me get this far. As someone who currently has zero confidence in his work, seeing that so many people enjoy what I create is so incredibly encouraging. Thank you all for this. I hope that I'll continue to improve and make art for this wonderful community for many years to come.
I also hope being there will help me improve myself, as well.
Without going into too much detail, there are some things about my personality I'm hoping to change - things that have hurt or annoyed some of my closest friends to the point where I fear if I don't change I'll loose them. Much of it pertains to my sense (or lack thereof) of self worth and a tendency to be highly critical towards myself, to the point where I flat-out ignore the things my friends are trying to tell me - things that are only meant to help. This is damaging and counterproductive, and I wish every day that I could somehow take back what I've said in the past, or simply stop acting this way. Much like with art, though, I'll only improve if I put forth effort. The friends I've made in this community over the past year have been a godsend. They've helped me with my art and lifted me out of the dull, lonely existence I led prior to opening up online. In the past few days I've come to realize that there are several issues I need to work out about myself, and feel that this move to the city to begin a new chapter in my life will help with that.
Finally, I recently hit 100 watchers - a milestone that, again, would not have been possible without the help of my friends. I'd like to extent my deepest thanks to everyone who helped me get this far. As someone who currently has zero confidence in his work, seeing that so many people enjoy what I create is so incredibly encouraging. Thank you all for this. I hope that I'll continue to improve and make art for this wonderful community for many years to come.
Good luck with art school and the personality thing! If the latter works out, please do share the secret to your success. Low self-esteem can definitely be debilitating.