So I'm back in my home state on the other side of the continent
In the city with my grandparents for a week before I go live with my parents

I am hurting physically and mentally and emotionally and spiritually
I miss my apartment so much
I miss my freedom so much
All the stuff I took for granted in the past year is gone and boy am I missing it

Everything feels so bad and wrong and lonely and I'm overcome with grief tbh

Hopefully things will feel less awful soon
But rn they are.... Very awful