That sucks as a situation. I honestly wish you the best for the future; I hope that you can come to some sort of conclusion that doesn't lead to strife. Be who you are when you can; it isn't much, but it's all I can really say, and I regret that I can't offer more.

It'll get better eventually. I'm going back to school for phlebotomy, and once I can afford to I"m moving out! I really dont know if my mother will accept it. My dad can go frak himself. I know my sister will but she has a petty side so until I am on my own telling her is out of the question. Ugh. I signed up for a dating site, hoping I can find someone who understands if only for friendship. I HATE living in bumblefuck nowhere. No one I know lives around here any more. :( Its just me and a family I cant trust. Just have to hold on which I can. I just need to vent.

Well, it is better to vent than have it build up and explode somewhere. Best of luck with the phlebotomy, too! I hope the dating site works out for you (in terms of what you need from it, that is).

Hey Yami! Perhaps you remember me from way back on /r/furry. I thought something may have happened to you but I'm glad you're okay, although it seems like you've definitely been going through a hard time from your post.

Looks like you have come to an accurate conclusion based on what you feel (doesn't appear that you are asexual if you feel something towards women). Although at least for me, who went from straight to bi (At least I think) I came to the conclusion that it wasn't really even that necessary to label myself in the first place. So I'd just encourage you to see and date whoever you feel like, male or female and simply follow what feels right.

As far as your family situation goes, you're in a bit of a weird spot still being tied to your parents financially. You know your parents the best of course but hopefully they would not cut you off financially for expressing what you've been going through with them. Just know your friends (and aquaintance in my case) in whatever spaces you frequent, be they furry or otherwise support you and wish you the best.

Well, we all have different ways of dealing with it. I used to be terrified of being possibly gay, but then I eventually tried stuff with both genders. I still prefer females, but I can do stuff with guys, it just takes me a bit longer. Sometimes its nice. Family is also religious, but they don't mind whatever orientation I am. Overall, I've become relaxed about it. Its not as big of a deal as I once thought, to be honest. ^^

Also, did you go by Yamicat on reddit/ r/furry? I used to know someone by that handle.

Yah thats me. Yanno I"m feeling a little better now. Just giving myself permission feels like years of pressure off. I've signed up for my tech courses in a career thats in demand. I'll be able to move out within a year and if I want to date, I"m just going to have to find a person who's ok with the situation. Or wait for hell to blow over here so I"m not adding gas to the fire. I know my parents will accept it, if begrudgingly, but right now is NOT a good time. Oh well. One thing at a time. Its just nice to not be lying to myself. I'm gay. I"m a little butch/rather androgynous. I'm ok with myself now.

Oh! Nice to see you again. I liked your daily drawings on reddit awhile back. That was when I was a new furry :)

Glad to hear you have calmed down a lil. For a time, I felt weird about the whole thing, but I feel pretty normal about it now. Just don't push yourself just to "be" gay or be one_way about it. I've learned its not so healthy to do that to myself. Realized I made myself feel bad if I went too far with guys. I still will horse around with them, but I'm no longer forcing myself to be one way or the other, and it feels much better. That being said, I would like to find another girlfriend. Haven't had one in awhile, and I miss female company to be honest. x3

I get what your saying but I spent too long not allowing myself to be gay. I spent years convincing myself I was bi. Was messing with me. I'm giving myself permission to be gay. Its ok! I can look at girls and not force myself to look at guys. I cant explain how much better I feel. One little week and my depression has gone way down, I'm getting more stuff done, the anxiety nightmares are lessening. I think its been pent up and eating away at a part of me for years. Silly how something like this can bug you so much.

Awwr *hugs* :3

Well, I'm not on FA much, but if you have a telegram, I'm on it pretty much daily. ^^