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8 years ago
[Commissions are always open till the spots are not filled on my profile page publicly here or privately in notes feel free to poke for a spot.]________________________________this is a header____________________________________ Well with september 11 uni resumed, which usually means from 11 the 5 6 7 ish and the 12 13 14th weeks are busy. Being busy is one thing but one huuuge mistake I made last year was a high level of stress pushing on my back which I did not end well on the long run mostly because I was somewhat pretend to be happy. One thing I happily admit that I push myself here to my limits which I keep assuming its endless but this is sometimes the question between quality and quantity alright? And its one of those times where the quality does not matter for me. Except if it comes to certain things like art. I wont drop that... but I did take quite a few subject and I still have somehow a tuesday and mostly a friday free. Everything piled up on wednesday and thursday. And if it goes through on monday. Right now its one lesson.... the point of this journal? Well people that still care about my state of sanity probably read it and those probably also read what happened before, and gonna understand that I need a friend not someone that will give me a boost of happiness for an evening.
Like seriously tho. I have a lesson called artifactial intelligence. You know the thing that you talk to to have fun and tries to convince you that you are a robot... the teacher was talking shit about comparing Angela Merkel to soviet russia and about 9/11 bullshit like its a fact and nukes and how will AI will make humanity a home cat... and about his cats... i dont think I learned anything at that lesson. The comparison lesson I had back at my other uni which teached about the good side about the cooperation between biology and computers sounded bullshit and brought up stuff, was useless in my future but 10 more interesting... and it was not part of my main studies... like sweet Jesus some people have no idea how stressing this is in some ways and how stressing can it be when you know you cant do it and the friend all it says "you will do it I believe in you!" Feel like almost an extra person you let down. Well practically you did. Now I made myself feel bad...
Not that I hate words of encouragement but after the 2nd time you just wanna hear something like "you dont give up and thats all it matters because eventually it leads to success".
I honestly have no idea what I wanted to say with all of this... I guess something along the line of: my work state wont change, I might be grumpy or slightly depressed or tired from uni but please dont be afraid, and I hate everything that uni at this time stands for...
*disclaimer: some people seems not being aware that uni is often used here as the short version of university. Which is a different kind of college.
This was longer than I wanted it to be...
Eh just have the song of the day.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xhdNa3iy5rw
Update: offically terrified... the last thing is with a teacher that teached about how publication is dropping and said everything but nothing... what will be in the test? That our uni has 781 publications?...
Like seriously tho. I have a lesson called artifactial intelligence. You know the thing that you talk to to have fun and tries to convince you that you are a robot... the teacher was talking shit about comparing Angela Merkel to soviet russia and about 9/11 bullshit like its a fact and nukes and how will AI will make humanity a home cat... and about his cats... i dont think I learned anything at that lesson. The comparison lesson I had back at my other uni which teached about the good side about the cooperation between biology and computers sounded bullshit and brought up stuff, was useless in my future but 10 more interesting... and it was not part of my main studies... like sweet Jesus some people have no idea how stressing this is in some ways and how stressing can it be when you know you cant do it and the friend all it says "you will do it I believe in you!" Feel like almost an extra person you let down. Well practically you did. Now I made myself feel bad...
Not that I hate words of encouragement but after the 2nd time you just wanna hear something like "you dont give up and thats all it matters because eventually it leads to success".
I honestly have no idea what I wanted to say with all of this... I guess something along the line of: my work state wont change, I might be grumpy or slightly depressed or tired from uni but please dont be afraid, and I hate everything that uni at this time stands for...
*disclaimer: some people seems not being aware that uni is often used here as the short version of university. Which is a different kind of college.
This was longer than I wanted it to be...
Eh just have the song of the day.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xhdNa3iy5rw
Update: offically terrified... the last thing is with a teacher that teached about how publication is dropping and said everything but nothing... what will be in the test? That our uni has 781 publications?...
