I don't know why I feel this way...I just feel like lately I've done something very wrong and I can't put my finger on it...I try to talk with some people or just be a silly person and I feel like I shouldn't or can't anymore. I understand people have lives outside of the community/fandom and I understand that people can't really talk all the time on twitter, but I just honestly feel like I've done something very wrong and I can't put a finger on it. I don't know, maybe it is just me being paranoid...maybe it is my life just tossing me curve ball after curve ball and it is catching up to me. I don't know, I just honestly feel like I shouldn't be around...Even as I type this I feel incredible sadness, tears are welling up and...I just don't know what to do...