Well I am depressed and happy at the same time. Well I am depressed of course because Cayenne is gone and it is getting to me a little. But I am learning to live with it, sort of...................BLAH! Who am I kidding? I sometimes don't know what to do with myself. D: I am used to having him around, hell I can't think of a time I wasn't around him. So it realllyy sucks to just suddenly not see him. I just feel really lonely and depressed, it is a pain in the butt. I mean, I try to keep happy because I know being depressed wont help the time go by faster, but at night it is hard to sleep because all I do is think all night, and if I am not keeping myself busy and moving I start to think MORE! I need to create a better hobby too, I mean my hobby is drawing and sculpting, but when I draw, I draw our characters and what not. So it just makes me think of him more.

So I am trying to make my new hobby going to the gym, the only hard part is being a girl. D: When that part of the month jabs me in the back it SUCKS to work out. Well at least for the first day. Ugh...I am dying. :( I wish he was here again. DAMMIT! D: *falls over and whines*

But the good things is he got ahold of his phone this morning and sent me a quick test before they took it away again, the sad things it I am so mad I didn't wake up to the sound and send him a quick text back. That is why I am kind of down this morning, yet really happy. I am SO happy to actually hear from him since it has been over a week, a week and 2 days to be exact. *coughs* But who is counting? >.> <.< But it just makes me sad because I couldn't say something back to him and kiss him again. Anyways...Blah! I got a new printer, so maybe I can update some crappy pictures because I can't color or ink to save my life. I am not patient enough to do either. XD I just need to figure out how to connect the scanner with my laptop, it is a wireless scanner. :P

Sorry for filling up your journal thing, I just like to get things off my chest sometimes. :)

I wuv you Cayenne!