take care of the depression, it can ruin every moment of your life. I was there once and started having thoughts of how the silence of death sounded appealing. if you're not there yet don't let it get to that. Do what must be done to get better

oh Ive been trying. Ive been living with PTSD for 7 years now and it doesnt help Ive had ADHD all my life. been in and out of hospitals and therapy. but no healthcare anymore tho.

:( then keep writing what you need here and on the FA forums. you need all the support you can get and when something is inside your head and heart you need to be able to get it out.

I was lucky enough to catch this depression at an early stage but i know not everyone has that luxury. maybe you can seek support and advice from people who had or are in a similar situation.