You have plenty of reason to live. It may seem difficult now but in the end the pain and struggle pays out in a bountiful reward of achievement and goals. As you continue to move forward so does your art and your skills along with it. The more experience the higher the level and the more people will lookup to you. You are one of many that I enjoy learning from and I love that much to continue to push you forward. Because without you it will be that much more of a struggle for myself and others who still hold onto you. Think of it like Naruto when he worked hard and had numerous people to looking to him as he surpassed many challenges and made it through with those around him. Never give in that easily. I will continue to help build your foundation over time. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️