So this last wednesday I went to a mental ward again. I was having severe invasive thoughts and felt just like shit. So I went out for a smoke and decided to call the emergency number for the psychiatric hospital. After having talked to them for a bit they said they couldn't help me and gave me the number to the mobile emergency unit. I tried to call that number but got a message saying the number was disconnected. So I went on the internet to look for another number to them. Turns out they shut down the lines at 22.00 and this was at 3 in the morning. Feeling helpless and not knowing where to turn I called the non emergency number to the police and talked to an operator that dispatched a patrol to come and meet with me. After having talked to them for a while going into St:Göran's mental ward was the clear option and so we went. I ended up spending the night there and in the morning I was feeling alot better and got to talk to a doctor. Now im waiting for the 25th when my doctor is going to call me and then I will ask her to resume my psychologist contact after having declined that help for a couple of months now.

But now I feel alot better again and I feel relaxed and well.