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8 years ago
I've been radio silent for too long so here's an update on me and what's going on. Especially for my very patient commissioners.
So here's the thing, I've been getting sick very easily lately. It used to be I'd get a minor cold like once a year and in the last few months, i've been dealing with infections and other ailments. I think i'd benefit greatly from seeing a doctor but no money, insurance, or time for it. Anything I've gotten hasn't been serious and for the most part, i haven't had a fever or anything bad but I find it concerning.
The main distraction is my family. mostly my mother. Whom at this point has become nothing by an oversized child. I do almost all the cooking and cleaning. I do all the shopping and have to drive her everywhere. I take care of all the animals i never ask for money, pay for my own bills which i try to keep to a minimum, I don't even buy myself fast food anymore unless it's mid-afternoon and I haven't eaten yet. If i don't need it i don't buy it anymore.
I have no control at all over when i wake up or go to sleep. So i can't just work throughout the night as much as i would love to. I absolutely love nighttime where i don't have to worry about anyone bothering me or asking me to do something they can do themselves.
Most days i'm just too stressed out to calmly sit and work and when i can find that special zone where i start working away i have to drop what i'm doing every fucking time. It's like turning a car on and off for no reason over and over again. Quick way to get no where.
Now i'm trying, I could pump out work but i'm trying not to skimp on quality. So while i am working, it's just slow. I promise i'm slowly working and trying my best but i'm sorry to say my best doesn't feel that good.
So here's the thing, I've been getting sick very easily lately. It used to be I'd get a minor cold like once a year and in the last few months, i've been dealing with infections and other ailments. I think i'd benefit greatly from seeing a doctor but no money, insurance, or time for it. Anything I've gotten hasn't been serious and for the most part, i haven't had a fever or anything bad but I find it concerning.
The main distraction is my family. mostly my mother. Whom at this point has become nothing by an oversized child. I do almost all the cooking and cleaning. I do all the shopping and have to drive her everywhere. I take care of all the animals i never ask for money, pay for my own bills which i try to keep to a minimum, I don't even buy myself fast food anymore unless it's mid-afternoon and I haven't eaten yet. If i don't need it i don't buy it anymore.
I have no control at all over when i wake up or go to sleep. So i can't just work throughout the night as much as i would love to. I absolutely love nighttime where i don't have to worry about anyone bothering me or asking me to do something they can do themselves.
Most days i'm just too stressed out to calmly sit and work and when i can find that special zone where i start working away i have to drop what i'm doing every fucking time. It's like turning a car on and off for no reason over and over again. Quick way to get no where.
Now i'm trying, I could pump out work but i'm trying not to skimp on quality. So while i am working, it's just slow. I promise i'm slowly working and trying my best but i'm sorry to say my best doesn't feel that good.
I hope you take some time out for yourself. I know it's hard to, and there is bills to be paid, but sometimes you have to
You are really strong for dealing with all of that. And I know there is probably more than just what you have said. Take care of yourself when you can