[UPDATE] Little update on life
8 years ago
General
Welcome to INCtastics Journal Hello everyone, just a little update on life... which has not been kind to me recently. Had to work overtime quite much two weeks ago and I'm still waiting for one day again go home early on Friday (seventh week in a row now) and my Saturdays get stolen and taken away by either work or family. I could vomit and am so sick of it all.
I kinda want to get into game design or at least draw more but neither of which is barely an option because of really bad and mostly depressive mood. I don't even get to check my submissions and all the tabs I have open... 7k submissions on my inbox and every single one feels like a boulder on my conciouns... not to mention the over 120 tabs I have open and not saved yet... I'm actually thinking about stopping to save images and just blow all I have to hell... it's not like I need it with internet connection or so...
I also think I should make a complete system reset sooner or later. For the next time I will get me an anti-virus program that costs something, because, I think they help better. And I'm pretty sure my PC is fucked up badly... with my job now I just don't have the time anymore to check on everything unfortunatly...
On a more positive note, I think I know where I want to go with my art style, I like alot how my first fain picture came out.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23005364/ for reference
I kinda want to work into that direction, since it combines coolness, cuteness and I think also sexiness nicely. I have also done some Incendramon headshot sprites for RPG Maker, I think it's a start... now if I only could get some freetime to sort things out =w=
But my last vacation was canceled and I'm pretty much crawling by now from stress and exhaustion. My last vacation was in summer, and it seems to be dragging on more and more.
Other than that... I can at least enjoy some gaming from time to time, one of the very few things that brighten up my day.But sadly, that's cut shorter than I'd like it to.
On an unrelated note, how are you doing? I hope better than me.
EDIT: Nuked all submissions on FA and DA - GOOD RIDDANCE I SAY!
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Those things helped me lose massive depression, maybe they can work for? xp
Metal music is great, but right now I am more in a industrial/electro mood xD S3RL hits my spot currently very nicely
There is also a lot of stuff you can take to make sure you don't get sore after working out and to make lifting weights a little bit easier. You could drink pre-workout mixtures before working out to make lifting easier like I do and you can take protein powders with Casein in them before you go to sleep so you don't wake sore at all. There are a lot of workout powders now that making workout super easy.
Plus after working out for about a month or so you'll become partially addicted to working out. You'll feel like a beast and want to feel more like one afterwards by working out even more lol
And you don't have to do super hard exercises right from the beginning, you can do simple stuff to find hard but can still manage and then just increase number of set/repetitions/amount of weight as you see fit as long as you keep improving (even if it is slowly) its all that matters xP
Well I personally only listen to stuff like that when I'm in too good of a mood, since it will help it go a bit more piper :p I don't find it a good idea listening to stuff like that casually because from a psychological point it will make your brain think everything is okay even when its not, cuz life sucks lol thats why I listen to that stuff only on good days xP
but for metal I listen to all kinds but mainly Thrash all day cuz the lyrics in them tend to remind you that "the world is a difficult place for us to endure, be we endure it anyways" or "life sucks but it could be worse" lol :3
such as... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K5jvUXij7nU or https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2giLQtjIxxc lol
But I guess if that helps you out right now then whatever lol I just like it when my music reminds things could be worse x'D
Privatly, I "could" get behind it, but where others people watch? Nah I'm not insane.
My brain is too lazy to think xD I just listen to music that I like and maybe get some story ideas from - I know nothing is right period, there is not even a single bit questioning it xD
I think I will get more into Miracle of Sound, right today I'm kinda addicted to the Doom song he/they made
For general metal I go to the power or volk variation, Dragonforce, Eluveitie, Amon Amarth xD that's more my stuff
I like to think that things are bad, will be worse and there is always a worst to pass. And when it gets good I'm happy about it, it's easier to stomach when expectin the worst but getting something better xD
You can just do what I do and buy some dumbbells and a bar with weights for each end, and use a towel or 2 and a small chair to help you do ground and sitting exercises like I do. Also all the equipment I have can fit under my computer table since there is so little of it, I workout in my backyard but I can just as easily workout inside like I do on rainy days.
Ohhh I see I like Dragonforce myself a bit too and power metal as well :3
Yeah, I always tell myself "lets see what bull-shit the world wants to throw at me today" but as soon as I'm home its "lets improve myself so things aren't so hard next time" or just relax in general too xP
sounds neat :3 Maybe I will get some stuff once I have some money to spare (spoiler: I don't |D broke as hell)
awesome x3 no force like dragonforce
I just relax and forget XP ignorance is bliss after all
Aber ich bin stolz auf dich dass du alles genuked hast! :"D
Du musst dir ja eigentlich keine Sorgen machen etwas zu verpassen: Wenn dir danach ist kannst du irgendwann bei einem Zeichner, der etwas Neues hochgeladen hat, mal auf die Gallery klicken und ggf. "neue" Bilder entdecken die vorher in der überfüllten Inbox nur wie Arbeit gewirkt haben :")
Hat also auch einen netten Nebeneffekt mal ein paar Wochen alles zu "verpassen". Anders als auf Tumblr sind die Gallery-Seiten da eben sehr praktisch x)
Du klingst aber auch WIRKLICH urlaubsreif ._. Der Dezember kann nicht schnell genug kommen. Mache dir keinen Stress immer produktiv sein zu müssen. Ich denke es ist nciht verkehrt sich Projekte für den Urlaub auf zu heben (oder bis dahin wo man wieder Motivation hat) und solange einfach nur zur Entspannung etwas zu spielen.
Danke xD es war schwer, aber ich glaube ich geb einfach keinen fuck mehr drauf was ich verpasse und was nicht xD ich glaub wenn ich noch mal Folder mache wo ich bilder speichere mach ich einfach nach Artist und gut ist :B
ja das hatte ich mir auch schon gedacht xD War auch am überlegen alles zu entwatchen, wo ich realistisch gesehen nix commissionen würde. Sei es weil die Regelung des Zeichners zu blöde sind oder weil der Preis einfach zu hoch ist (ein YCH-Platz für 900€+ wäre mir nah |D)
das stimmt xD Tumblr ist da Grütze...
ja das stimmt, aber ich will langsam irgendwie was zeichnen, ich will in meinen Stil reinkommen, ich will den finden und haben sodass er mir locker von der Hand geht |D UND ICH WILL DIESEN STIL VOM FAIN BILD WEIL DER SO KLASSE IST :B
WIll übrigens weibliche Flamedramon und auch Alexstrasza zeichnen :B
Achja, schau sie dir mal in Heroes of the Storm an, speziell den Hintern in der Dunklen-Königin-Skin |D Das ist Milf hoch tausend...
I wish i could do more to help :S but well... it's nice see you again nwn
Yeah I'm still here... just busy and lazy as all hell xD
Naja ich bekomm GLÜCKLICHERWEISE was weil wir stempeln müssen, und jede Überstunden werden als Überstunden aufgeschrieben, kann ich mir zwar nicht auszahlen lassen, aber Urlaub für nehmen =w= auch wenn das trotzdem nervt...
Ich hoffe es auch D: Für mich hab ich irgendwie einen NoFunNovember oder so anscheinend =w=
°neid° xD ich will die Hälfte von deiner Freizeit, kannst die Hälfte von meiner Arbeit haben xD und jeder von uns kriegt volle Bezahlung, passt
ja das ist voll nervig D: ich hab am 29.11 nen Arzttermin mit Komplettcheck, bin gespannt was da kommt
Ich begrüße regen, Schnee,trübes Wetter xD bei Sonne tun mir die Augen weh