this is mostly for my mate  Dawstie


i couldn't sleep and im just.... ugh i wanted to apologize for all the weird things ive done i know its not easy and we had hard times but we made it this long together you are my everything... ive never been so happy until i met you i gain stability in my life and even tho im working though hard past events but as long as your with me i feel like i can face those fears..i feel i can face these insecurities the closer the time comes of you coming to see me again makes me anxious and it does make me think things i know there not true but i do trust you with all my heart i just want you at my side and i wanna try my best to make you happy like you have with me...

its tough being so far in different countries i know....but im gonna try so hard to get you here im tired of my bed being so empty i need my fox...i need my other half...i...need you dawst you are mine and i am yours theirs not a day that goes where i dont think of you and often i just get loanly every time i open my door and your not here but when that ring of the discord call starts life gets filled in me and i just forget about the world i enjoy every little thing we do together

im sorry if i can be a fuck up im not perfect and often i think i dont deserve you but im happy you choose to stay with me your also my loving pet and only you have things and parts of me that no one has ever had or even came close to touching ive always been so closed and locked away from other even ones who i deemed close but you manage to go though everything and held me together

thank you for everything my love i cant wait to have a long fun fill life with you once we get things together i just wanted to write this out i just needed to let my heart speak im so in dire need of you being in my arms right now and this is gonna be the longest next few wees before you come again just hug the living fuck out of you when i see you again dont be surprise if i cry this time hehe love you sweetie i cant wait to see you