Okay, its been a while since I posted a journal entry here on FA as I normally do that on DA. But I want to make a confession to my friends and watchers out there. As an artist, I tend to explore my mind with many different kinds of fantasies, be they things that I have known since my childhood, or things that I have experienced in the real world, be they good or bad things. People do all kinds of things during their life time. And based on my general experiences so far, we as artists tend to explore the wildest aspects of our imagination. And some people even explore rather taboo subjects like mature art, which is something you'd see quite a bit often on the internet. Especially in places like Fur Affinity.

Now understandably, everybody has different tastes and interests. And everybody has their own set of likes and dislikes. And understandably, be it in the outside world or on the internet, we tend to come across things that fascinate and intrigue us, and we come across things that shock, horrify, or even disgusts us. And some of the things we may be into may completely turn other people off. In my case, I tend to explore my mind with various fictional characters (be they existing or OCs). And often I tend to have them engage in a variety of different scenarios and activities, be they normal, action packed, violent, or rather... How shall I say... Questionable. Well anyway, its no secret by this point. And all of you who have been watching me on FA know that I tend to post some rather erotic and questionable mature art here on this site. And well, honestly I'm not sure what motivates me to make such art in the first place. I seem to have a thing for doing mature works despite not really being gay. Or at least I don't think I am. I honestly can't say what my sexual orientation is. And God only knows why so many artists explore sexual and otherwise really gross stuff in art. But hey, who am I to judge? Its up to the artist to decide on what he or she wants to draw. And in my case, I'm usually very mature about it. And I don't judge. Because hey, we have the ability to make our own decisions.

However, there are some lines I don't want to cross. While I do explore intense gory violence and sexually explicit material in art from time to time, I do my best to stay away from the more disturbing things like fecal matter and such. I have NEVER drawn feces (or shit as we usually say) in my life. And I don't think I ever will. But I can say this though, I have drawn blood, guts, urine (at least once), and semen. But just because I do explicit art from time to time, does this really make me a gross person? Well, that's all a matter of opinion. Now, you're probably right. Maybe I am gross. Maybe there's something wrong with me and I need professional help. Or maybe I just do things like that because well... Its just what I do some times. And I have a right to do it. Its understandable though that some of you are turned off, or even shocked or grossed out by some of the things I post. And believe me, putting myself in your shoes, I can totally understand. Though, I also know for a fact that there are those of you out there who are not at all bothered by what I post here on FA, because a lot of you like to explore similar material in your works as well. So if you by any chance came across a mature pic in my gallery section here on FA, you may not be bothered at all by that, as you would consider it the norm. Heck, some of you may even enjoy what I do. And if that's the case, good for you. I admire your maturity and your good judge of character. And I mean that sincerely mind you. No sarcasm intended.

But the thing I'm trying to convey here is that I am well aware that different people will have different or even mixed reactions to some of the questionable pics I post here on FA. This includes some of my friends who know me on both Deviant Art and Fur Affinity. And if I have caused any sort of discomfort to anybody, I sincerely apologize on your behalf. But think of it this way, just because I do questionable things in art doesn't make me a bad person. An artist has the right to do as he wants. And everybody has the right to explore their mind. Art is a form of self expression. And that is the right of all artists. However, one must also take into consideration of the possible consequences of their actions. In my case, I have made some mistakes in the past. And some of those mistakes have cost me a few friendships. But, learning from experiences, I now know that some things we do can have serious consequences on some of our relations. I won't go into details with my past experiences. But I think you get the picture by now. But anyway, that's basically what I wanted to say. I know that I do some weird things in art. And I guess this makes me a weirdo. But hey, we're all weird in our own way. But I guess that's what makes us special. For me, being weird isn't necessarily a bad thing. Its just who we are. I hope this speech was helpful to some of you who are reading this. And that concludes today's topic.

Peace.