It's another day without my papa, but I wish him happy birthday none the less. Sure it's hard to not think about him and how he helped me when i needed most and when we had good times together, but that's life. I mainly posted this as a " hey I wanted people to know my precious dad's day is today, despite his deceased status," kind of thing. But more anted to share some things I loved in his presence and to share my memories.

I remember this like it was yesterday, We were out shopping for food, he was helping me with groceries. We had our lunch at the Chinese buffet that day too. we just got home and were unloading things, he had gotten me a five pound tube of ground beef. Well At one point i was messing with his computer, he was having issues with some form of input ( i don't recall the input issue in detail, just remember there was one and i fixed it) when I hear my papa drop a couple things and curse " GOD DAMN IT." I came in with raven to see what was up, he looked at me, with a dead serious expression and said, " Jacob ( me and scarlet,) I'm beating your meat." He dropped my tube of ground beef. Raven and I both looked at him, laughed then I cringed and covered my crotch, screaming rape jokingly.

It was a good day, like many I've had around him, but I remember it so clearly. It's strange because I don't have a very good memory especially when bogged by a million things at once. Anyways, thank you for reading if you had. It felt good to type this up, despite the tears I let fall as I wrote it. Thank you so much for liking my scarlet, myself, Hunter, my beloved wife and her sonas. Thank you for even showing up to this journal. Thank you so much.

"For all life is precious, even the ones long past. Rejoice in the morrow, remember the days past, enjoy the day present. Be still my children and let earth give you her warm love for all eternity." ~Scarletina KItr