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A Collaboration Auction + life update
8 years ago
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Hello all!
I am pleased to announce that the talented and kind
nekogirl1257 and I are working on a collaboration YCH auction :D Neko has an amazing talent in the female form and I am just so thrilled to work with her lines by coloring it and shading it <3 Please do give it a gander :D http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25577657/
Personal update:
I have been devastated by a sudden and acute sense of pain in my drawing hand the last week+ and it has been a trial to stay positive. I try the ol "Take it day by day" but was blindsided by family news. I am very deeply sorry for being silent. I am not ignoring anyone. I tried hard to respond to comments and notes but I have been floating around the house in and out of a state of shock. I promise to get back to responses at every lucid moment of my mind and when my fingers can handle typing :)
As for the news, I normally wouldn't want to burden folks with too many inane things that don't pertain to art but I'm at a loss. Step dad has told me that he as prostate cancer. He had scared me by saying things such as " I have known for years now that this will one day happen," and "the doctor says that even late stages of this cancer will allow for 5 years of living," and " I am okay with dying." Thankfully my mother spoke with his doctor and confirmed that it's the beginning stages. Not all hope is lost! Or so I thought until I received more disturbing calls where my step dad is rejecting group therapy which also helps him to cope with the news and help him out with rides. He is an old Taiwanese guy and so... I am wondering if it's some form of male bravado? No problem, I got this. I can slowly talk him into taking the group therapy. And then I get calls asking to research coffee enemas and vitamins to help his body. Okay, I still got this. My parents are very natural remedy, ancient Chinese medicinal brown goop happy, and try all sorts of things with crystals, lasers etc etc. I can still work with this! And then finally... I am told that he wasn't planning on getting treatment for his cancer? And suddenly the first phone call has me in a fritz and I am having some difficulty coping and am at a total loss. I am very powerless and am acutely aware of how little change I can do while still being loaded up with responsibilities. I am finding my "It's okay, I GOT this :D" mentality slowly cracking and I just want to art to calm and recenter myself but, the hand is not in a state that can do that.
Some positive things that I have been focusing on: My husband loves me dearly. He supports the both of us and words very hard and wears himself out at work. Despite that he still helps me with cooking since I can't hold a knife safely for long periods. He's helped me clean a lot. He tackled a few items from my "Honey Do-List" AND helped me out with my small garden. I get plenty of cuddles and pets which has helped me feel grounded.
I am also very lucky in knowing very kind and patient friends and clients on FA. I have gotten Notes that make me tear up because they shown some genuine care for my health and artistic well being. I get choked up sometimes and have trouble responding because to me those notes were small little life-lines that reassured me. Thank you. A thousand thank yous!
And with that I'm going to bury my red face in my pillow now and fight the urge to delete this journal because I have spilled my guys and feel very exposed. So... hi! Thank you for reading. Stay cool!
I am pleased to announce that the talented and kind
nekogirl1257 and I are working on a collaboration YCH auction :D Neko has an amazing talent in the female form and I am just so thrilled to work with her lines by coloring it and shading it <3 Please do give it a gander :D http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25577657/Personal update:
I have been devastated by a sudden and acute sense of pain in my drawing hand the last week+ and it has been a trial to stay positive. I try the ol "Take it day by day" but was blindsided by family news. I am very deeply sorry for being silent. I am not ignoring anyone. I tried hard to respond to comments and notes but I have been floating around the house in and out of a state of shock. I promise to get back to responses at every lucid moment of my mind and when my fingers can handle typing :)
As for the news, I normally wouldn't want to burden folks with too many inane things that don't pertain to art but I'm at a loss. Step dad has told me that he as prostate cancer. He had scared me by saying things such as " I have known for years now that this will one day happen," and "the doctor says that even late stages of this cancer will allow for 5 years of living," and " I am okay with dying." Thankfully my mother spoke with his doctor and confirmed that it's the beginning stages. Not all hope is lost! Or so I thought until I received more disturbing calls where my step dad is rejecting group therapy which also helps him to cope with the news and help him out with rides. He is an old Taiwanese guy and so... I am wondering if it's some form of male bravado? No problem, I got this. I can slowly talk him into taking the group therapy. And then I get calls asking to research coffee enemas and vitamins to help his body. Okay, I still got this. My parents are very natural remedy, ancient Chinese medicinal brown goop happy, and try all sorts of things with crystals, lasers etc etc. I can still work with this! And then finally... I am told that he wasn't planning on getting treatment for his cancer? And suddenly the first phone call has me in a fritz and I am having some difficulty coping and am at a total loss. I am very powerless and am acutely aware of how little change I can do while still being loaded up with responsibilities. I am finding my "It's okay, I GOT this :D" mentality slowly cracking and I just want to art to calm and recenter myself but, the hand is not in a state that can do that.
Some positive things that I have been focusing on: My husband loves me dearly. He supports the both of us and words very hard and wears himself out at work. Despite that he still helps me with cooking since I can't hold a knife safely for long periods. He's helped me clean a lot. He tackled a few items from my "Honey Do-List" AND helped me out with my small garden. I get plenty of cuddles and pets which has helped me feel grounded.
I am also very lucky in knowing very kind and patient friends and clients on FA. I have gotten Notes that make me tear up because they shown some genuine care for my health and artistic well being. I get choked up sometimes and have trouble responding because to me those notes were small little life-lines that reassured me. Thank you. A thousand thank yous!
And with that I'm going to bury my red face in my pillow now and fight the urge to delete this journal because I have spilled my guys and feel very exposed. So... hi! Thank you for reading. Stay cool!
I'm not very good at cheering people up, just remember you're just one person you can't do everything for everyone don't forget to ask for help every now and then if you're getting overwhelmed. It's in our darkest hour we find out just how strong we are. My thoughts are with you and your family.
I'm doing my hardest to maintain myself in a happy stasis and my husband is also doing his best to look after me. Taking everything day to day and sometimes, hour to hour.
As for the cancer, I might have been able to talk my step-dad into surgery! Hurray <3