Honestly I want/need money. I've been trying to hold off on this cause I seriously don't want to ask or beg people to pay me. I rather have people pay me back on what they owe me instead, but sadly I've not had much luck on that part. I've actually been without a job for a couple weeks now and after paying off all but this month's rent.. I just barely have a little over 100. Since I was doing contract work and wasn't fired because of my own doing I'm getting a bonus by the end of this month, but I'll be using it for the rent so I'm unsure how much I'll have remaining. This is fucking me up and I've never been in a situation like this before in my entire life. I do have a job lined up for me, but for reasons even I'm unsure of they won't let me work until new years, which is why I want to ask for money ONLY to keep me afloat till I work and get my first paycheck. I just need enough to keep my bank account and to afford small payments, and in case there might be any more monthly payments that haven't been slapped onto my account already.

I seriously don't want to ask for much, even just 5 dollars or 10 from each of ya would be awesome. Again, I'm only asking for enough to stay till I start working again within 2-3 weeks. I already got myself food the other day so I won't need to go for another grocery run for at least another week if I stick to like two meals a day. I honestly hate asking for this when it's december of all months, but I was shafted by my former workplace removing me before the very end of the contract work. I would still be at work and I may even have a thousand dollars now if it wasn't for their decision to kick me out early. I can't stress it enough that I'm terribly sorry to ask for money cause I never wanted to be in this situation where I had to rely on others in this fashion. I was doing just fine up until a month ago and if I could go back to stop myself from going to the con, getting so depressed I actually drank to the point of passing out (which doesn't take much for me) and having to- fuck.. I just remembered the stupid road tolls in Illinois too. I think I paid all the tolls, if not they would've probably knocked on my door or in some similar fashion already. I digress, I seriously just want about.. maybe 100 dollars total or maybe 200 so that I'm able to stay where I am till I can start working again. If you want me to pay you back, please let me know, I'll do it as soon as the 2nd or maybe even the 1st paycheck.

(Edit: I was reminded this was a thing so I'm placing this link here. paypal.me/AnthonyIngalls )

Thank you for reading.


Evening update: I got a call with the temp agency now and convinced the new work place to have my start working as soon as next wednesday. Thank goodness that's happening sooner than later. Some people have already donated quite a bit now too so I believe I have enough, but do feel free. I'll probably close this journal by the end of this week.