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19 years ago
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You know what's funny, as I look back over my experiences on TEH INTARWEBS? Know what's sad, too, yet strangely enevitable in that helpless shrug, tired sigh, shake of head and roll of eye manner?
Women.
Not just any women, but specifically, almost HALF of all of the most interesting, talented, witty, and wise women I have ever known on TEH INTARNET...
...aren't women.
More confusing, oftentimes they portray themselves as straight. You know ... this is probably PRECISELY why I just don't care about screenname genders anymore -.-; if you wear a female avatar, that's just fine by me: what the fuck ever. You want to be seen female, I will see you as such. It's just a shame that so many awesome people are living exactly RIGHT up to the TERRIBLE Conventional Wisdom that "There are no women on the internet".
I KNOW this is not true. I KNOW several female individuals who ARE indeed female, verified by phone conversations, etc... but the figures are kind of depressing.
And I'm not talking about the extremely girly-girls who dress themselves as pink and frilly as possible yet are only attracted to other females. The people in question are down-to-earth, insightful, patient, level-headed, and though having opinions, are ambiguous about how they feel about having those opinions (rather than excited about your opinion as though it were something new or exotic--a dead givaway). See... There's only one thing I've noticed that seperates the -good- female players from the actual females: I'm comfortable around the players -.-;
Isn't that pathetic!? XD
I'll know she's real if she makes me nervous as all fuck! There's probably only ONE girl who I know is REALLY what she is that I AM almost completely comfortable around these days, and that's Zeb. Then again... I have been kind of a hermit and I don't even usually end up talking to anyone else at all lately >_> she actually tracks me down, pounces me, and aggressively interrogates me with tickle-torture until I spill it! Which I shall remain immeasurably thankful for...
but even if the situation is completely easy-going, and i'm calm and happy and just dandy, there's always an underlying tension... a bundle of quivering emotional energy, merely jumpy in its dormant state, but ready to erupt at the drop of a hat. Even if it's NOT going to erupt like that, there's the knowledge that it COULD. Do you recall the phrase, "Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned"? That's the fury. Guys don't have that fury. They have rage, sure... Rage is like a locomotive, chugging forward... but Fury is like a bolt of lightning.
But to get back on topic... it's just a shame because these particular 'women' I knew, they would've been exemplary, irreplaceable additions to that entire half of humanity. Or maybe they'd be too, I dunno, reasonable? Patient? Understanding? I'm speaking in relation to those, "the few, the loud," militant feminazis, to whom anything that is not THEM is INFERIOR. If there is one thing I cannot fucking stand... it's Arrogance.
*sigh*
...It's not that I want them to stop though. I just wish they were really female. x.x
Women.
Not just any women, but specifically, almost HALF of all of the most interesting, talented, witty, and wise women I have ever known on TEH INTARNET...
...aren't women.
More confusing, oftentimes they portray themselves as straight. You know ... this is probably PRECISELY why I just don't care about screenname genders anymore -.-; if you wear a female avatar, that's just fine by me: what the fuck ever. You want to be seen female, I will see you as such. It's just a shame that so many awesome people are living exactly RIGHT up to the TERRIBLE Conventional Wisdom that "There are no women on the internet".
I KNOW this is not true. I KNOW several female individuals who ARE indeed female, verified by phone conversations, etc... but the figures are kind of depressing.
And I'm not talking about the extremely girly-girls who dress themselves as pink and frilly as possible yet are only attracted to other females. The people in question are down-to-earth, insightful, patient, level-headed, and though having opinions, are ambiguous about how they feel about having those opinions (rather than excited about your opinion as though it were something new or exotic--a dead givaway). See... There's only one thing I've noticed that seperates the -good- female players from the actual females: I'm comfortable around the players -.-;
Isn't that pathetic!? XD
I'll know she's real if she makes me nervous as all fuck! There's probably only ONE girl who I know is REALLY what she is that I AM almost completely comfortable around these days, and that's Zeb. Then again... I have been kind of a hermit and I don't even usually end up talking to anyone else at all lately >_> she actually tracks me down, pounces me, and aggressively interrogates me with tickle-torture until I spill it! Which I shall remain immeasurably thankful for...
but even if the situation is completely easy-going, and i'm calm and happy and just dandy, there's always an underlying tension... a bundle of quivering emotional energy, merely jumpy in its dormant state, but ready to erupt at the drop of a hat. Even if it's NOT going to erupt like that, there's the knowledge that it COULD. Do you recall the phrase, "Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned"? That's the fury. Guys don't have that fury. They have rage, sure... Rage is like a locomotive, chugging forward... but Fury is like a bolt of lightning.
But to get back on topic... it's just a shame because these particular 'women' I knew, they would've been exemplary, irreplaceable additions to that entire half of humanity. Or maybe they'd be too, I dunno, reasonable? Patient? Understanding? I'm speaking in relation to those, "the few, the loud," militant feminazis, to whom anything that is not THEM is INFERIOR. If there is one thing I cannot fucking stand... it's Arrogance.
*sigh*
...It's not that I want them to stop though. I just wish they were really female. x.x
If it should happen, it should happen. I wouldn't worry about it overly much.
Unfortunately, though, I have not managed to divulge any information on how to increase my capability to appreciate the male anatomy :( Nope. It's still gross.
But on the other paw, seriously: Good luck.
**I have boobs (observation)
**I bleed once a month (observation)
** You're uncomfortable around me most times (standard)
** ESPECIALLY when I pounce you (observation)
** I tend to exhibit more "fury" than "rage"...though I DO go through "rage", too (standard)
** I'm arrogant...woops, well not everyone's perfect
Guess that proves it. I'm a woman!
And the rest of it, I shall leave alone.
And I've known you in-person, so... I am at least a TEENSY BIT aware of your more obvious qualities. Like Boobs.
...
>.>
...
Yeah.
suffice it to say, I don't -need- proof.
Yeah, I guess Rocky kind of makes more people aware of obvious things like boobs, especially with the ill-timed unfortunate wardrobe malfunctions we constantly seem to have...
...but you weren't there for that, were you? (teehee)
I can tell myself to not get involved all I want to, but I know it's not going to stop me. Some people give up on relationships. I've given up on trying to control my relationships. It's going to be painful, very often, to terrifying magnitudes... but it's also going to be very honest, and that has always felt good, to me, in the end.