Welp,

Hi... This is my first journal here.
So... who I am and in what state I am?
I am Teku... and I used to be happy and nice... I mean, I am still trying be nice...
I am person who fucks up easily.... says something painful or wrong, even when he means it nice...

I lost a lot, I lost person I loved in a suicide... I lost friends... I lost family.
But I am trying be positive and keep fighti.... I am lying.... I am depressed as fuck....
Sometimes I ask why I even live, what I have to do here... and why.

Everything sometimes feels like my fault and it hurts.... so much stress everyday... so much pain.
When it will end?