I don't know why I keep doing art and music and shit. I know for a fact no one is gonna see it or even acknowledge it. What's the point. Why do I keep working my ass off on shit only 2 people are gonna see. Unless its the same main shit everyone else makes, no one ain't gonna pay attention. I keep coming back to the same shit. Doing what i love the most. I keep losing my muse for drawing because I'm not that good st it. Different people, same fucking pose. I try to do different poses, but no avail. Then I see others do it better and I hang up the pad and pencil. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of being some talentless nobody in a world of nobodies. I'm sick of having to keep up my muse when I clearly can't find the strength to keep it. Its just makes me more irritated.