Life doesn't always go the way we want to..
It gives or it takes, and we're never able to tell what's next..
Quite a lot has happened to me over 26 years of my existence..
Some might say I deal with a lot on a daily basis..
But now, life decided to spin way out of control..
By attacking my Mother..

I used the word attack, because her life was always heavy, always uphill, always against her..
Since late November her quite advanced MS was getting worse than ever..
She got Neuralgia, which in our words, basically means the worst imaginable pain that's possible and then some..
By the end of December, she was so weak from inhuman amounts of painkillers that it basically turned her into a zombie..
She caught a flu which around last week decided to morph into pneumonia..
She's been in the hospital since Saturday, struggling to survive each and every second..
Few hours ago I got a call from her doctors saying that they did everything they could, but her condition is too severe and her body is giving up..
She's alive right now, but she's alone, unable to talk, eat, breathe or even shit on her own..
100% aware of what's going on..
It's the worst nightmare..

Why am I even writing this? I don't really know..
But knowing that you know, makes it seem less alone..
I'm still figuring things out..
But right now, I'm just going to leave this here..
And ask for your warm thoughts for her..
She doesn't deserve this end..
It's just not right..