I'm going to try not to rant. I normally don't post things like this, because I'm not particularly a fan of airing my dirty laundry out for the world to see. But in lieu of my absence, I feel like I at the very least owe an explanation to the people who legitimately care about my work and what I do.

I first want to thank all of you. I have over 1000 watchers now and that is a huge milestone. To all of you who care about my art, it truly brings me an unbridled joy in my life and makes me want to continue to get better and claw my way to the top.

With that being said, I've been recently battling a mild bout of depression. It's not severe enough to keep me from functioning, and I mean no disrespect to the people who are dealing with worse than I am right now, but it is enough to severely stunt my motivation...

My breakup was the popped lynchpin in a lot of the craziness in my life that I was managing to keep at bay. And while things are getting better, I can barely bring myself to put a pen to paper in any capacity. I lost some of what I thought were some really good people in my life, but man, sometimes it surprises you how well you believe you know someone, you know? I'm happy that I've made a lot of new friends and if it wasn't for both my new ones and my old ones, this would have been more devastating than it already is. So I do wanna thank the people who continue to stick by me, through the times when I ramble...or when my mood flips suddenly from happy to depressed...or how out of control I've been.

I've been trying to take a break, yeah? Like, just some time to focus on myself and whatnot...lol, turns out I'm REALLY bad at that. I thought maybe focusing on my writing would be a nice change of pace too, but I guess all the good ideas are being a little stubborn. I'm not really sure how to pull myself out of this, but I'm trying my best one day at a time, and it truly is getting a bit better, sans the times when I regress.

Ah, but I don't say this to belittle the problems of anyone else. I know that there are a lot of people going through things way way worse than this, and for those of you who are, I am truly sorry and I do hope the best for you. I was afraid to put this up because I didn't want to seem weak, or anything, but..I don't think I have to do that. I believe that so long as you aren't constantly bawling for attention, it's a brave thing to be able to speak your true feelings.

I am going to try and post more. I am going to address all the commissions that I have, so please don't lose faith in me. I just ask for your patience to allow me to go through this tumultuous time in my life at my own pace.

Thank you, everyone. To the people who've been there, to the people who've hurt me, I'm going to believe that there was a reason behind this madness and put my best foot forward.