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8 years ago
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I think my life hates me. That, or if there is a god, he just REALLY hates me.
So, sparing details, got some news from my boyfriend, which is a moment of "FINALLY" for everyone involved. Rather, everyone who matters, as hateful as that may sound.
However, as it is always for me, the bad must outweigh the good, so, how can life throw a curveball at something that does not affect me but makes me happy? Try my sister throwing a fit because I purchased a phone card rather than giving my money to her. Pointing out every little flaw that is more controlled by her and my other sister than it is by me. Subtly threatening to kick me out... Yep.
"You WANT your phone, but you NEED a place to live." Yes, I need a place to live, but I also need social interaction.
I have been putting on bright, happy face here. "I LOVE my job, I LOVE being home with my sisters. I LOVE EVERYTHING." In reality, I don't. Nobody here has many interests that fall in line with mine, so I can't talk to anybody, I can't go anywhere because I have no money for gas. So... I suffer in silence.
I love my family, don't get me wrong, but... We don't have a whole lot in common. It's like being the black sheep. They talk about movies, and shows, and this and that... I try to talk about D&D or something, even small things and I'm brushed to the side and ignored, so... Yes. Lack of interaction SUCKS.
The most frustrating thing is hen I am ignored. See: I have been trying to apply for food stamps since my checks at work suck. Example: These last three weeks, my checks were $83, $61, and $49 respectively. HOWEVER: All that is stopping me is ONE little letter saying "Yes, he lives here, and this is now much he pays in rent!" That's it. I have an envelope to send it in and everything... I have asked at LEAST ten times in four days for this letter, and I am always told "I'll do it", but here I sit, waiting, and it needs to be in within two days, on the 21st. So... I quit. No more asking. I'll just not pay as much for rent since I need money for food and such, and maybe THAT will get her to do something.
Anyway: Bitching aside, I am finally making some progress in Pokemon US, trying to form a proper team and all. I keep switching, the not being satisfied. But so far, I have Incineroar, Chesnaught, and Pangoro in my party. I'm making a team of DADDIES!
So, sparing details, got some news from my boyfriend, which is a moment of "FINALLY" for everyone involved. Rather, everyone who matters, as hateful as that may sound.
However, as it is always for me, the bad must outweigh the good, so, how can life throw a curveball at something that does not affect me but makes me happy? Try my sister throwing a fit because I purchased a phone card rather than giving my money to her. Pointing out every little flaw that is more controlled by her and my other sister than it is by me. Subtly threatening to kick me out... Yep.
"You WANT your phone, but you NEED a place to live." Yes, I need a place to live, but I also need social interaction.
I have been putting on bright, happy face here. "I LOVE my job, I LOVE being home with my sisters. I LOVE EVERYTHING." In reality, I don't. Nobody here has many interests that fall in line with mine, so I can't talk to anybody, I can't go anywhere because I have no money for gas. So... I suffer in silence.
I love my family, don't get me wrong, but... We don't have a whole lot in common. It's like being the black sheep. They talk about movies, and shows, and this and that... I try to talk about D&D or something, even small things and I'm brushed to the side and ignored, so... Yes. Lack of interaction SUCKS.
The most frustrating thing is hen I am ignored. See: I have been trying to apply for food stamps since my checks at work suck. Example: These last three weeks, my checks were $83, $61, and $49 respectively. HOWEVER: All that is stopping me is ONE little letter saying "Yes, he lives here, and this is now much he pays in rent!" That's it. I have an envelope to send it in and everything... I have asked at LEAST ten times in four days for this letter, and I am always told "I'll do it", but here I sit, waiting, and it needs to be in within two days, on the 21st. So... I quit. No more asking. I'll just not pay as much for rent since I need money for food and such, and maybe THAT will get her to do something.
Anyway: Bitching aside, I am finally making some progress in Pokemon US, trying to form a proper team and all. I keep switching, the not being satisfied. But so far, I have Incineroar, Chesnaught, and Pangoro in my party. I'm making a team of DADDIES!
Doberman_Guard
~dobermanguard
It's beating a dead horse I've been beating with you for yeeears now, but fuck I'ma say it anyway. It would probably be beneficial for you to make a major move and try somewhere new. For like a decade + now you've bounced back and forth between two areas of which seem to result in the same disdains and unhappiness. Lather, rinse, repeat. There's so much out there and so much to experience. And even if it didn't work out in the end, at least you tried. I really doubt your plan in life is to keep doing what you're doing till you die. Good god man, get out and try something new, somewhere new.
