Im back to being sort of active on FA.
Ended up in the hospital again for a few days(big fucking surprise there)
Took time to myself, and i got myself figured out some more.
Stuff like what i want/need to be happy.
Im going to be incredibly strict about who i trust in the future
Before my visit to the hospital, someone who i can no longer call a friend betrayed my trust.
Not naming names, no matter who asks.
My medications no longer work, im broke for a bit, and i can't afford to go see my doctor about getting switched off of them and onto something else.
I've been doing very poorly with sleep and overall health
Fell back into some pretty bad habits including harming my self.
Regained trust issues with myself and just about anyone else that has ever given me a reason to feel that way.
I want more friends, but at the same time, it's impossible for me to trust anyone anymore because of my experiences in the past.
I honestly want to die but i can't exactly afford that either,
ive got too much going on
I can't do anything without feeling really bad
I don't know what to do about it or who to turn to.
changed my character,
probably going back to how i used to be in 2015/2016
Updated my profile info on FA
Trying desperately not to feel how i do.