I would like to be dead right now. No kidding, I would. After 21 years following this fandom, all I collected was porn...and disappointment. Ever heard of a nifty smartphone called Whisper. There's a furry section there. I was able to talk to a lot of...people, if you will. And most of them despise old-timers such as myself. And here I thought, absent-minded, that they would appreciate what an old fag like me had to offer, at least the stories, at least how two "major webcomics" like "PVP" and "Penny Arcade" got in a crusade against us, furs - for no reason at all. I was there. I saw it all.

Alas, I was wrong. They despised me. A few of them tried to FP with me, in which I suck. As a literal term, not the "sexual" one. I got my heart broken, tried to kill myself once again, failed again.

A true friend of mine in the community, whic shall remain Anonymous, said I should hide my age. But what's the point in that? All I wanted was to show that still there are a lot of old timers around here - YOU KNOW WHO am I talking about, even though you hide behind fake ages.

I don't. And that was my downfall, because some of you furs can be REAL assholes. Don't worry, time will tell. One day you'll wake up as old as I am, and...just start lying about your age. I know at least some that are as old as I am, if not older.

Well, it's disappointing to me. All these years around, and ONE true friend here.

Maybe I'm to blame. I'm the asshole. I dunno.

All I know is that it feels bad.