So, I've been kind of busy since starting school again. I've really tried to buckle down and focus more on what I'm going to do for my career, and I'm immensely excited for the rest of this year. It's been forever since I've actually been excited about being in school, so this is pretty awesome for me.

I've also been wanting to begin doodling everyday and at least completing an official piece every two weeks, just so I actually start submitting more on here and also to help me get used to drawing more often, and to practice my craft. I am also considering after a couple months, beginning to actually take on some commissions or make some YCHs of my own once I have some more examples that people can see.

Another thing I have begun to do is weed out some negativity out of my life, and that includes cutting some ties with people I really cared about, but I haven't received any reciprocity from them. This saddens me, and I often wonder if it because of me, but it is most likely that we are just moving apart and don't really have time to fit the other into our lives. Which, as I am getting older; I am truly starting to understand, and do not take this sort of separation personally. The only reason I am taking the time out of removing said people from my life is, because I feel like I'm waiting for them to one day come back to noticing I exist, and I'm just trying to nip that issue in the bud.

I feel like as I grow older I have begun to suffer with loneliness, and that in part is my fault. I put too much faith into online relationships instead of trying to gain friendships and bonds locally, and that is just unhealthy, and a habit that I am working on getting rid of. I am actually more extroverted than introverted. I thrive on social interaction, but I do enjoy a little bit of downtime every once in a while, but I prefer my time alone to be less than what it is now.

Please don't let this discourage you though. I greatly appreciate those who have shared moments with me, and have been so sweet to me online, and I hope you all are doing well. And please feel free to contact me at any time as I always enjoy talking with others and enjoying your company. <3

But anyways, I felt like writing this down somewhere. I don't really get too many comments on my journals here, so sometimes I kinda post here to vent, because I feel like no one will really read this and worry/care. But it helps me to just type it out, so I'm not keeping this stuff inside like I usually do.